4lic3 Posted November 9, 2012 Posted November 9, 2012 So 2 months ago this guy broke up with me, I was devastated I even thought of killing myself, I couldn’t eat or sleep. I was in a really bad place to be. I spent the first weeks trying to figure out how to get him back, I spent days reading stupid ideas of how to get him back. He was my everything (at least that was what I thought) I really believed he was my soulmate. When you’re in love you don’t see the imperfections in other people. I was too blind to see the truth, the real him. I dedicated 8 months of my life to him, I did things I’ve never done, I was always there for him when he needed me, I sang for him I made videos and whatnot. He ignored me, he treated me like ****, he called me dramatic and a lot of mean stuff. Yet I was desperate to get him back. It has been 5 weeks since I haven’t talked to him. And I’m getting better, I finally got it. I was used. No one deserves this, no one should beg for love NO ONE. It has been really hard for me to get through, I cried a lot (still do sometimes). But I know I don’t deserve that, no one does. I’m on recovery and it takes a lot of will, it depends on me. I had two options: staying in bed for the rest of the year feeling miserable and crying or trying to get my **** together and move on. I decided to move on it’s the only choice I have. Now after 5 weeks of not talking to him I realized he’s not worth it, I don’t want to see him again EVER, I do not want to talk to him EVER, I don’t want him back anymore. He’s toxic, he’s poison. We are never ever going to talk again. He’s gone forever and guess what? that’s fine by me. I don’t think I need a narcissist *******. So yeah, it does get better but it takes time and will from you. You don’t need anyone that doesn’t need you.
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