I was doing so well

[Minadee]

Long story short for those of you who havn't seen my thread in "Second chances." I was with my ex 3 years, I am now pregnant with his child and he is offering to support me through the termination, but has made it clear he wouldn't be there for the baby if I was to carry it full term. I've been convincing myself that I will win him back again. I want him back although that seems to be fading before my eyes.

 

We broke up oficially last week. I was doing well(ish) with NC, until I went cinema with the girls and ended up seeing him there with some young, petite blonde.

 

I am having an absolute break down, he only kissed me two days ago after he took me to the clinic and now he is out and going on dates and i'm still a mess. I don't know how to get over this, it has really really affected my self esteem.

Edited November 8, 2012 by Minadee

[PYTpisces]

He admitted that he wouldnt be there for his own child??? but that he would "support" you through termination, meanwhile he's dating other women and feeding you crumbs? He sounds like a piece of SH*T and a poor excuse of a man. I would spit right in his face... The thought of him just made me physically ill. Don't let someone who is so openly a piece of scum pull down your self esteem, because his scumness has NOTHING to do with your worth. Kick that pedestal right from under him and leave him on the ground where he should be. My heart goes out to you because I know you're hurting right now. Please please please keep telling yourself the truth, that he is a no good poor excuse of a man. He wouldnt know what respect was if it hit him like a freight. This chick he's seeing has no idea what a dirt bag he is. He might be showing his charm now but his ugly horns will show in due time. He seems to have no sense of responsibility. It goes without saying you deserve better, and I know you will see that when you comes to terms with his true character...

[Minadee]

Oh my god I am furious right now, I was at a little gathering with my family last night, and after a drunken revelation from my auntie i found out my closest cousin had been abused. I went outside and I cried and I stupidly texted him, telling him about it, i hoped he would ring and tell me that there was nothing I could have done. I'm a lightweight anyway and being pregnant only had a little glass of champagne as it was a 40th birthday and spent the rest of the night out in the smoking hut. (not smoking, obviously, just sitting there crying) Instead he ignoredd me for a few hours then sent sent me "Oh dear :/" and posted "leave me alone!" on his twitter account. (saw that this morning) I was weak and vulnerable and needed someone to talk to, and stupid me thought he still cared about me, i am the mother of his un-born child that he considers to be a "thing that will be taken care of" Oh my god I am crying till it hurts. I am beyond hurt. How can I still love him? Why did I spent the entire journey home crying and remembering times with him?! He is just a bastard! why do I want him back when he is so happy chasing other girls that he has no regards for me! I have never felt pain like this and i have chronic nerve damage in both hips, so believe me, i know what pain feels like! I don't know what to do with myself.

[River Rain]

He posted "leave me alone"...I remember talking with you last week. It seems again that you are attempting to contact him and look for sympathy from him. Regarding your cousin, you should have texted one of your other friends, not him. If he's out dating, he's trying to move on from you but you keep pushing him and he's going to end up really resenting you. Honey, you have to accept that it's over. You have a full life ahead of you, but the clinging on is only doing you harm because he's probably at the point where he just feels obligated to respond to you. You have to pull yourself up and try to move on! If you two are meant to be, it's not going to happen when you're so desperate and emotional, it'll happen when you're past that initial hurt, when you have a clearer head and a not so wounded heart. Work on yourself for your own sake!