Alphie Posted November 6, 2012 Posted November 6, 2012 I've been away from home for about 30 years. I came back a year & a half ago. I found my ex lover on fb. He is married with grown children & I am also. I was so infatuated with him when we first met I could barely speak when he was around. He was the most beautiful guy in the world to me & I wanted to own him! Back then I didn't think I had a chance in hell with him so I decided to take what I could get & just loved having him for as long as he would have me. He broke up with me & i eventually got married & he kept on partying. After I was married we started talking on the phone a lot. Always talking about how we should meet up but never did. I moved out of state & somehow we lost touch. Now he tells me that I am the one who got away. He says I was his first & that he was scared back then but not now. Says he doesn't know what his intentions are but that something is drawing him to me. I want him so bad I can't concentrate on anything for more than five minutes at a time. I have never been able to resist him! I don't want to resist him. Of course there is always a problem... We've been 'talking' on fb for a little over a month. Says the only time he can get away is when he takes trips for work. He travels a lot. I can only go with him when he doesn't have to fly. So far we have not seen each other yet. He 'accidentally' posted on my timeline once instead of in a private message & one thing led to another & I am supposed to be leaving to go back home at thanksgiving. He sent me a message & is going on a trip the week before I am to go home & wants me to go with him. I want to go so bad! But I have only 2 weeks to get my things packed & ready to go back home & can't possibly go with him & be ready in time for my trip back home. What do I do!?
Author Alphie Posted November 8, 2012 Author Posted November 8, 2012 I had forgot about my previous post. A lot has happened since then. I lost my home to a fire. Lost everything. My Dad came down to help me out but I ended up going back home with him & my step mother when I saw how bad she really was. I don't know how my Dad was doing it all by himself! My stepmother had been misdiagnosed & actually had frontotemporal dementia. She passed away just over a year ago now. I've also lost one of my cats & one of my birds. Yes. We are both still married. I'm not looking for a husband. I've given my husband all I had to give. I just want a little romance. Yes, old, familiar, young, fresh love! For just one week! Before I have to go back...
Author Alphie Posted December 20, 2012 Author Posted December 20, 2012 Finally met up with him last night. He looks a whole lot different, but it was (& he actually said this) like we had never been apart... He treated me like a princess. I haven't felt so connected or so loved or so attractive in so long that I really truly had forgotten what it was like. I am hopelessly in love! No matter what happens with us, I am glad I met with him. I wouldn't trade last night for anything in the world!
Sugarkane Posted December 24, 2012 Posted December 24, 2012 If he really loved you he would've made you a priority decades ago. Why make someone a priority when they don't make you a priority also? I think you have rose colored glasses on.
CptSaveAho Posted December 24, 2012 Posted December 24, 2012 If he really loved you he would've made you a priority decades ago. Why make someone a priority when they don't make you a priority also? I think you have rose colored glasses on. First Love.... GIGS.... Happens... chill out sugarkane... you will understand soon enough
Author Alphie Posted December 25, 2012 Author Posted December 25, 2012 I've seen him twice more now & seeing him again for Christmas... Oh yeah, let me back up a bit... Haven't talked to my husband in maybe two weeks... Tried to call him to tell him I want a separation. He never answered & never called me back... So, I changed my status on FB & dropped his last name. 3 or 4 days later he sends me a MSG on FB saying I see you dropped our last name now when are you gonna make it official... I don't have any desire at all to fight with him... I'm all out of give a ****... So, 2 more dates with who I feel in my heart is my true soul mate & I am on cloud 9, yes, I admit it... Met my sisters & my Father on our second date & spent the night with me on our 3rd date... OMG! I just love this man sooooo much! We are absolutely on FIRE together! Even when we argue I can feel the passion & the & the desire to peacefully reach an amicable solution... I can never give him up & I am as sure as I can possibly be that he is sincere & truly loves me as much as I love him... We are going to Christmas dinner at my sisters house & my whole family will be there. Sure cant wait to see him again!
Author Alphie Posted December 27, 2012 Author Posted December 27, 2012 Yeah, but sometimes the grass IS greener...
Author Alphie Posted January 2, 2013 Author Posted January 2, 2013 I need advice on getting a divorce in IL. Has anyone done the do it yourself divorce?
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