chv2mar Posted November 3, 2012 Posted November 3, 2012 When i first met Jay in person it was love at first sight for me than i knew, as soon as he got off his car silver Nissan 350z (future husband) it was like my dream man manifested to reality...He gave me red roses, with a card in it saying.."Your an amazing person and hopefully we can share more moments like these". Gave me a huge and a kiss on my cheek, he had me at HELLO. A feeling i never felt dating other people. We e-met on Facebook back in 2010 but met in person 2012. I met him finally on January 8, 2012. A day before we met he told me he had his hands read and told me that the lady told him that he was going to meet someone on January 8, 2012 he didn't know how, when, or who. The lady told him that she can be your future WIFE. He text me saying this. I was amazed and i told him that I also had my hands read by a Hindu older man. Didn't ask me not one question about me he simply said he wanted to read my hands gave me a piece of paper before he read my hand and told me to put it away. He read my hands and told me everything about me and my future than he said that i was going to meet someone and get married by 2012. When he finished reading my hands he said to open the piece of paper he gave me he said my name and my birthday. He asked me to be his girlfriend a week later it was too fast for me we were kissing things were getting kinda warm i was afraid it was leading to him wanting sex..since he knows i'm a virgin. It was good but at the same time a bit uncomfortable i wasn't completely feeling it..i should have said we can wait a bit..to be his girlfriend.. i broke it off a week later..we went to malibu to eat at a restaurant and i broke it off there..i told him that date other poeople...in my mind i explained it to him about three times why, he took it as i was pushing him away..told him i wasn't fully ready to be in a relationship. (I was doubting myself.. It was like to good to be true...i was going through many personal problems and didn't know how exactly open up to him.....) In February we had the most amazing vday we never had or experienced ourselves..when i gave him the bag i gave him a huge a kiss on his cheek. I bought him like 14 gifts..i spent $1,500 on him, plus i gave him a teddy bear, bought a vday card and it explained how i felt about him....i was really detailed....he gave a white diamond heart necklesss. we continued seeing each other without making it official and so we didn't set rules and boundaries..we stop seeing each other for a month in May but still in contact i was dating other people, he was too. In May i went on three casual dates not serious...i went out with this one guy i told him about it..my miss judgment on telling him that the guy gave me a simple kiss, no touching or any of that...He looked at me and reacted, said "You still haven't learn huh?". Looking back i should have not even said that to him. My miss judgment... Last time i saw him was in June 26 2012 or something we went to the movies..we stopped seeing each other, and i notice when i would text him..he wouldn't reply..when he dropped me off at my house he beeped..looking back it seem that it was the last time i was going to see him i even texted him that night saying text me when you get home it was a usual i would do..he didn't text back that night after i send him two texts. I texted him on Forth of July saying,..Happy 4th of July... replied back saying, saying who's this? Telling me he got a new cell phone which was when the galaxy 3 came out...i said you know who this iss?? than he said, "Mariaaaa" than i said "you forgot about me" he didn't reply after. (He didn't know any of decisions, i made along the way, as in not becoming his girlfriend not making it official, family problems, mom that ended up in the hospital three times, dad who was sick, family business that wasn't going to good...) I wanted to seee him in person to speak to him about everything in September 2012. He said look you took the time to date that one guy,...i wanted to pursue to see him. He said he was busy busy with work work..and he said what the subject was about...since he didn't rely that day. I texted him long texts..expressing my feelings,.....my mistake was expressing my feelings by text... re replied the next day saying.. "Life is sort,....It was just something that it wasn't meant to be, people change and its another chapter in a persons life that's all,...keep changing the page and smile away the world is watching you...don't worry keep exploring and dating you'll find someone for you, someone is out there waiting for you... Life is about living, learning, experiencing so cheers to you and everyone in it...." i said so your saying that your not willing to try it in the future? he said if someone comes along the way im all in but i choose who comes into my life carefully so..." I keep texting him expressing my feelings towards him i poured my heart out and he i didn't reply to any of my texts...(my feelings never changed towards him i just had trouble expressing them because im not wise in relationships) he must think i took him for granted and all of a sudden i wanted him after...but him not realizing my feelings never changed towards him... Because he said in the beginning i was all there and when you left went out with that one guy we saw each other right after and you can back stronger, the second time i wasn't fully their like he was the fist time... I texted him saying "Answer me this question in whatever words you want so it seems like your playing revenge because i went out with that one guy? Why you give up so easily?" He said, "honestly, i lost whatever i had with you, why go, why kiss, why be doubtful, when i didn't want too date... Plus im real busy, i get bored fast sorry..at least im honest" weeks later i texted him saying that i wanted to speak to him after two-three hours of texting him back and forth i was finally able to break the boundary he put up of avoiding to see me...i texted him saying that i have to speak with you about, everything and why it didn't work out...recently early October that everything in between affected me not opening up and letting him in..the subject was about my mother her cancer, dad, school, business, me and him..many things he didn't know.... he said, "Look things didn't workout between us..you were dating different guys..and i appreciate the fact that you opened my eyes to reality" I replied back saying something like, "look you don't understand,........ He replied back saying.."Look people come and go.We can be great friends, that's it(:" (I felt he was pushing me away because he always said i had growing up to do that was offensive to me) He replied back saying i agree with what you have to say, im real tired sleepy. Though will talk soon, have a gnite" On Halloween 31, 2012. Me and my friend were at Denny's we were eating dinner and all of a sudden..she brought up Jay..i didn't know exactly were he worked. So my friend googled Jack In The Box in the city there was only three. So we went to all three, the last one we went to i recognized Jay's friend..were they give you your food. I did not expect to come across his friend. We talked and he said, that's his bestfriend closest buddies, we were talking for a bit than, i told him hey i have your vday pictures. I told him things aren't that great with Jay, to please not to tell him, that i went to Jack In Box...it was an awkward situation. That's his bestfriend so i figured he was going to tell Jay nway, and before he did i took the initiative and texted Jay, before his bestfriend would tell him. This is what i said. I texted him this "Hey its Maria, me and my buddy Jazzy were at the movies in Downey yesterday just got back to LA, had to leave mex..to dangerous..had my electronics stolen..we were hanging out in the city were she lives, works..we came across ur friend at jack in a box, ask bout u..bout an hour ago just got home..have yourself a goodnite" Do me a big favor, leave me alone! Thank you! can i ask why? look I apologize for my miss judgment and immaturity in the past..And although we've grown slowly apart..I've understand accepted,respect your decisions, i've moved on..you take things to serious honestly & to the heart.sorry for the pain and hurt that i may have casued you in the past..because its caused me the same.. Look just dont go looking for me at my job, thats all... well honestly I lost interest in you... pain&hurt never I bleed water nd cry blood, its rare when I cry. This finding my cousin online, to my job, to blowing up my cell its unreal nd called "obsession"... just leave me alone! Its not even hard! "PLEASE" Im dating someone nd dont need no1 else in my life at the moment, gd.night nd if your smart you'll leave me alone, thank you!! You swear im obsess! I had flaws that have turned into rich lessons!; I will never make again! Trust me..its not for u to take it to the extreme and get offended..u've been harsh on me without speaking to me n person about the relationship n the past..u always come to ur own conclusions..without being understanding.. I won't go to your job looking for you! "if" you think im obsess...Yes, you already told me that. i unfollowed your cousin..btw! if you wish i will do soo! Like i said ive moved on i told you this..and if we talked on the fone the othr day was to speak about the "relationship" the past i was not trying to fix or get in to a relationship with you...because obviously you had the wrong conception of me..... i simply asked prefered to speak to u in person to speak in detail why..not excuses they were facts...on the phone i could tell you much..but you didn't want to...so i will leave it in the past..i will never make those mistakes again in life. understanable that your dating someone, i hope shes a good girl and i wish you the best..buddy! & if u lost interest in me was because we didn't do much but go to the movies and dinner...........plus i didn't have a car at that time... and i got somewhat side tracked with my personal goals and personal problems and i guess.....things are just better to be unsaid.....ive known this & u taught me the same....If they say love is blind..I rather be loveless and have my two eyes wide open..ur a man, be aware of whats out there...Like you said you lost interest in me... U got it all wrong apparently and I am sorry you feel that way. You think im obsess with u “about the relationship in the past” that is not the case I just thought that me and you can remain a simple friendship and keep in touch, here and there. All last night was to hit you up and tell you, but I seeeee I "CAN"T" even do that...becuz you think im obsess. Relax!! This relationship we didn't get to fully explore it 100% official boyfriends we saw each other from when i met him in January to the last time i saw him in June...he had strong feelings towards me my feeling never left throughout the relationshp...i obviously made mistakes at the end they added up 1. Blowing up his cell phone 2. Friend setup to text him (wanted to see if he was dating other people) 3. He got offended that i found his cousin on instagram and followed him 4. Expressing to many feelings by text (Keep to yourself a little more) 5. Finding out where he works and going 6. I told him i was falling in love with him...i kinda holded back 7. miss judgement going out with other guys 8. telling him about the physic, card reader who read my cards about the "relationship" after he said we can we great friends. how it ended honestly do you see any feelings changing? or hes completely moving on forever and not looking back? He turned 25 May 26. I turned 25 this October 9. Were both looking for the missing puzzle in our lives. He told me things he never expressed to anyone else in life, saying he saw me as his wife, not as a girlfriend,......What would you advise? Do? I honestly love this guy, we never fully gave it a full try..100%. Or the glass is fully broken? They wont be any hope?
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