Bit of hope at last

[gonefishin]

Hi guys just wanted to share the latest instalment of my amazing love life or lack of. Well myself and the ex where trying to sort things out and take things slow ..

I was delighted this is what I'd been praying for I was devastated when it ended

All the heartbeak symptoms I had them all.

And bad too..

Well two weeks in to us trying I'm doing everything to be a decent

Caring boyfriend and trying to show how much I wanted us to work..

And in most parts it was ok bar her little humours and snide remarks every now and again...

Lying in bed last night I think I'd had the last of the remarks and decided to stand my ground and say I was been treated unfairly.

Cut a long argument short she thinks she's fully allowed to do this.

But what happened in all this was like a light switch something that simple

Clicked and maybe I realised my own worth or seen what she is really .

Rose tinted glasses are off now . I said maybe its best she left and have to say it felt great ..

I'm not delusional i know I still love and believe me I prayed and begged for this chance .. Guess what I'm saying is becareful what u wish for ..

Next morning I feel ok.. I actually feel good .. I know I'll miss her .. But I know now she doesn't control my happiness .

What I'm trying to say is things can change in the blink of a eye ..and what we desire so much isn't always what we really need as we don't see our exs clearly !

And don't loose hope guys there is life after these people.

And like that it happened for me in the blink of a eye .

If someone on here said I'd be writing a post like this even 2 months down the line I'd have said no way it will take much longer ..

But today's the first morning I feel a weight lifted ..

When it happens for you guys it will probably be the same a shock but a welcome one..

We all deserve to be happy but what I done for so long was let her control my happiness and its a horrible way to be ..

I've made great changes since we broke up..

And I'm grateful for that . I'll never take a future girlfriend for granted as I've seen both sides now.. But at least I'm looking to a future now.

Be it with her, someone new or on my own..

I'm excited..

Stay positive guys..

Apologies on my writing skills I was never great in school!

[Balzac]

Nice update and good for you to take back your personal power. It's the only way to live in peace.