naomii Posted November 3, 2012 Posted November 3, 2012 Very long story short, i'm 21 years old and have been "seeing" this guy (25) for the past almost 3 years. It has become an absolute nightmare for me! I'm so attached and in love with him but i know he is SO SO SO wrong for me. We met. We hung out a few times, had sex, and mostly drank together. It never led to anything more and I didnt expect it to. I was young, wanted to be single and party. He wanted a relationship but I had never been in one and since I had just moved out on my own (with a roommate), it never became more. He understood that we were looking for different things but still wanted to hang out with me. He got a girlfriend a few months later and we went our separate ways, right when i was starting to develop feelings for him. I do not blame him for getting a girlfriend because I had spoken up too late. Their relationship ended 4 months later. He came back to me in January 2011. This time I told him upfront that I wanted a relationship, not what we had before. If he didnt want a relationship then we shouldn't see eachother because i had developed feelings. I wasn't aware of how heartbroken he really was by his ex (i figured since their relationship was so short that it shouldnt be too painful), and ended up being his rebound for a year. He'd come and go, tell me things to keep me around. He was also seeing other women that I'd find out about, which would lead to me ending it, but he never left me alone for more than a month each time we stopped seeing eachother. This went on until december 2011. January of this year, he said he wants to get to know eachother better and see where things go, that he feels like he doesnt really know me to be in a relationship. It was true, we never REALLY got to know eachother very well because he'd never allow us to get that close. We started spending tons of time together. He was staying at my place for days at a time, we were really getting to know eachother. He started introducing me to his friends. A few months later i started to wonder when he was going to ask me to be his girl. He'd tell me he cares about me a lot, that he feels really close to me, that i've treated him better than any of his exes, but that he doesnt want a relationship right now! I was crushed because he once again, had fooled me. We still saw eachother after that, but it led to a lot of arguing about us being in a relationship which would lead to us not talking, but then he'd come back a week later. That went on for the past 4 months. We "broke up" again 4 days ago. It was after a huge argument we had while I was at his place. I left crying and we havent spoken since. The thing is, based on the past, i'm sure he'll try to come back again. I just dont know what to do! I know I need to get away from him so why do I keep taking him back!? He's made my life miserable, so I dont understand WHY i even love him? How do I get out of this??
Author naomii Posted November 3, 2012 Author Posted November 3, 2012 Also, a few days before this argument, he was talking about meeting eachothers families and what kind of life we'd have if we got married, etc..
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