glassishalffull Posted November 1, 2012 Posted November 1, 2012 So its been 20 days of NC and i've had a lot of time to think. As time as passed I find myself now getting mad. You gave me the reason for not choosing me and I guess I'm supposed to be grateful that you were honest with me BUT......as I think about it I'm mad. The way I see it is I have more faith in what you are capable of then you have in yourself. You don't want a partner because that requires work. True partnership is work - but that is LOVE. You would rather have a companion who allows you to do as you want (have a flavor of the week) but still be able to have the comfort of a girlfriend. I am worth the effort!!! How can you not see that? You have told me that you admire my independence and you think I'm amazing. Yet - you chose her! You are getting to an age where this running around to feed your ego is ridiculous! You shouid be looking for a partner that you can count on. A partner who will give you all. A partner who is capable of standing on their own two feet but knows how to lean you and support you. Its utterly ridiculous that I'm the one feeling who's lost out somethng and it should be you!!! I hate that I can't let go.
PYTpisces Posted November 1, 2012 Posted November 1, 2012 Omg this describes how I feel and am going through to a T. I'm about 30 days NC though. He knew we were great together but he even admitted that hes not ready for the responsibility of a relationship. I go through spurts of sadness, anger the whole gamut. If you know you're a good girl and you know he's missing out, just keep chugging forward. I always say that you don't strike gold twice. He may think he can do better, and perhaps he will find someone who doesnt challenge him to be a better person. Maybe he will, either way he did you a favor if he can't treat you the way you deserve so you're not missing out on much. Rejoice that you are being the best version of yourself while he's stick in mediocreville.
Author glassishalffull Posted November 1, 2012 Author Posted November 1, 2012 I know that I am good for him but so pissed that he doesn't want to make the effort. I know I should be glad that he told me this but it hurts... I'm trying to move on but these past couple of days this has been on my mind - I'm worth it damn it!
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