Fmrbrknhrt22 Posted October 30, 2012 Posted October 30, 2012 The last 8 months have been such a whirlwind. I sit here with a bad cold, feeling alone, wishing I had her comforting words and eyes to tell me it's going to be okay. She's moved on, away in Italy right now until the end of the year, in a new relationship. As for me, I've been on so many dates and they all have just ended in failure. The girls I was strongly attracted didn't want anything to do with me and the girl that was really into me, I stopped texting after 5 or 6 dates because I got bored. No connection, nothing that could bond us. My ex and I have a long history. Best friends for a year, we tried the dating thing for 3 weeks, I ended things, got back together 6 months later, cheated on her, but she forgave me and then dated 11 months before leaving again. All of it was really out of fear of commitment on my part. Like she was too good to be true you know? Beautiful, intelligent, understood me better than anyone. We'd roll together and sing everything from Toni Braxton to Common and Tupac. I still miss those days. At this point, all my get out of jail free cards are used up with her, I know that. I hurt her alot, but over these 8 months, I've matured a lot and have made progress in terms of learning to live by myself and building up a social base, something I had little of when we dated. At the end of the day though, I just haven't come close to meeting anyone who possesses all the qualities she did. I guess I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes and need strength people.-Peace
Jamesblame Posted October 30, 2012 Posted October 30, 2012 Youve made mistakes and learned from them. This loss will hopefully be the one that makes sure your next relationship is a good one. Don't date if you're not over your ex--there's no way it can end any way but poorly. Trust me it really does get better. Don't put your ex on a pedestal focus on your differences and what you want in a partner.
Author Fmrbrknhrt22 Posted October 31, 2012 Author Posted October 31, 2012 Thanks for the advice James. I think you are right, I probably shouldn't be so hard on myself, but learn from it, grow, and move on. I don't know if I'll ever be over her fully for a long time, but I'm through the worst of it at this point. I think though you are right in that a lot of girls saw how desperate I probably came across in wanting to find someone and that's not the way to go about it in the dating game. Gota carry yourself like a man and be secure in yourself first.
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