kamio Posted October 30, 2012 Posted October 30, 2012 (edited) Yep, the title says it all! It happened over a month ago and I'm actually kind of glad. I feel like I dodged a bullet. I had no idea that he had doubts and it came completely out of the blue! We were picking up my wedding ring from the shopping center, were walking back to the car and he just lost it! He went bonkers and gave me a false reason for wanting to end it. Actually the converstation barely lasted 5 seconds. He was going through some stuff at the time and said: "Nope, I can't do this anymore. I'm not going to put you through it. I can see that I have ruined you. I'm going to the do the nicest thing that I have ever done for you..." And then he walked away. His reasons kept changing...from me, to him, to work, to stress, to me and then back to him again. In the end we all pretty much figured out that he had gotten cold feet. A few weeks later he did decided that he wanted to marry me again, but by that point I was enjoying life to much to go back. I wasn't going to sit in my room and mope over loosing him! I jumped up, raced back into the world and did all of the things that I had wanted to do for years! Don't get me wrong I was a balling mess and cried a thousand tears...but I knew that locking myself in my room wasn't going to turn my life around. So, I went to the beach, went hiking, decided to get fit and healthy and took up bike riding like I had always dreamt about doing despite how much it hurt at times! I also went out with friends I hadn't perviously had time for thanks to wedding planning (I'm only 22 - way to young to tie myself to someone who lived inside), went to the city gardens and had a ball! I rediscovered the things that I loved about life and had given up to make him happy. How dumb! He handled the post-break up horribly. He sent a horrible letter to my family and friends - detailing why he had ended it (even though he had been specifically asked by our Senior Pastor to not) - wanted to meet up and talk about getting back together and when we did, he refused to marry me on the original wedding date, even though he said multiple times that he wanted to...er, what?! I didn't get it at the time...until I got the letter and realised that he had sent them off a few hours before meeting up with me to talk about everything. It was -for him atleast - too late to proceed with the original wedding date. Call me mental, but if I was crazy about someone and loved them soooo much and couldn't imagine the rest of my life without them...I would have been standing beside that post office box the whole night and following morning and stopping the post officer from delivering the letters...no matter WHAT I had to do. Turns out he prefered convienience to marrying me. He has fine with any other date. Pfft! I deserve better than that and someone who is as crazy about me as I am about them. I'm not giving up outside for anybody! Stand up for what is important to you and the things that you love about life...no body is worth giving up your passions for. If the person doesn't fit, don't make yourself fit them instead. Stay strong! Nobody - like my ex-fiance - is worth your tears. He gave me back my life and I'll thank him for that part of the situation for the rest of my days. Edited October 30, 2012 by kamio
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