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I put this in coping because it has relevance which will become clear.

 

I had a dream last night about my ex's sister. I always got along with her, although we had a lot of heated debates about things, both of us being stubborn.

She's fiery and strong-willed, the exact thing I go for in women. I chose my ex because we shared more similar interests and humour.

 

Anyway, in the dream myself and my ex's sister have a child together. The dream took the scenario of her coming to my house to stay overnight with the child. We'd have dinner and she would talk to my mother (whom I've not actually lived with for years) then she and I would talk for a while (platonically. In the dream we had had only one night together and were not together,) then she would go sleep in a separate room. That's all the dream was, really. But I would lie there thinking of her with a rising feeling of lust.

 

And now today I've not been able to stop thinking about her.

 

The dream girl was exactly that: not at all like my ex's sister in anything else but looks (although she was beautiful, as was my ex.) The girl in my dream was strong willed, yes, but kind and tender, intelligent and graceful, and pretty much my perfect woman. She just happened to have that face....

 

God, will that family never leave me alone?! I spent 2 years getting over my ex, I'm now to be plagued by visions of her sister too?!?! A woman I had no actual romantic involvement with?!

 

It's also worth noting, perhaps, that the sister did recently have a child in real life, much to my amazement. She was young, beautiful and very outgoing, but never maternal. Never motherly. She enjoyed parties and the company of lots of people.

 

You ever wish you could go back in time and stop yourself from meeting an entire family?

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Yes, I do. Along with all the mutual friends we now share. I had to hide so many feeds on my facebook timeline just so I wouldn't see pictures, likes, comments, etc.

 

I met so many of her friends, family, friends of the family, and did so many activities with them. Now, here I am staying at my parent's house while most of my stuff is at our old apartment in boxes (That she packed up). I'm in the process of getting my own place. Put the security deposit down and waiting for the landlord to meet me for the lease.

 

Actually, I don't know if I really regret meeting all those people. I have some great memories and it wasn't a terrible, angry breakup, so no one hates me. It's just hard knowing that I won't be doing the fun summer get togethers with our mutual friends and her family.

 

I think we both should look back and cherish those who were brought into our lives from our ex's. In time, we will be able to look back and smile, or run into them and not be visited by the ghosts of days gone by.

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