Menehune808 Posted October 29, 2012 Posted October 29, 2012 Dramatic sounding I know. I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years and 6months. I tried talking to him bout our problems. When I do I get retarded responses... He's my first real boyfriend first guy I ever had butterflies for. I'm 21 btw. I was always strong on abstinence and thought love was for codependent morons. But I fell inlove I think.. Some history first 3 m/o's I caught him talking to his ex and all he talked bout was how horrible she was and I could literally go into detail in what she liked because it's all he talked about. He also cuddled/made out with another girl and when we fought bout it he said he liked at the time but he was drunk and he doesn't know why that happened then tried to blame it on his friends. He left last year for the Philippines and didn't call me for two weeks I had to haunt him down and when I did I got silly excuses. He deleted his FB because of it, he deletes his texts. Yet he tells me he loves me and what not. He didn't buy me anything for my past Bday. I have to fight with him to go work. But he's also the sweetest person best heart ever. And when we fight he then he shows up in a public place and acts like we're okay. When other people hit on me or disrespect me he doesn't defend me. But he tells and tries to act differently he claims he's slow or something and that he loves me. Our situation now.. I'm too scared to leave him because he depends on me so much. I also told him straight how I felt over and over, our fights are bad. And I have a crush on my friend I told my boyfriend about it and I also told him he doesn't deserve that we should break up.. and he just laughed it off and said that I'm okay. I told him that's not faithful of me and he said it's not wrong because I didn't do anything physical but thing is it's all emotional with my friend we hangout way too much all of us. And this guy sits down with me and talk for hours and it makes me sad because I told my bf that's what I want I miss having conversations he's always on his phone with games we don't talk unless we're fighting. And ugh soo messyyy. I know other people see me with my bestfriend and thinks i'm a slut because of his manwhore ways but i'm not doing anything, I couldn't not because my relationship but because I'm not like that! I want what's best for him and though our past is so rocky I know we're damaged at least I am. I feel worthless and disgusting and he let's his friends do this to me they put me down tease me actually got into a fist fight with one and he backed up his friend. Reading my words back to myself tells me to DUMP HIS A$$ but I know him and his heart I think. I feel so guilty and disgusted I want to die... I love him but not inlove I feel like he's a child I have to take care of. But when we do break up I cry for hours and go crazy and he shows up without me asking. I want it to end especially this feeling. But I can't determine what's worst being with him or not I'm so easily manipulated no one would believe me because he's such a nice guy and a good liar. But in reality I have a hard time saying good things about him. I'm evil... Has anyone ever been in this situation? Help me please!!! Also we live together ;(
taya Posted October 29, 2012 Posted October 29, 2012 hun you have to step up and tell him its over you cant keep liveing like this if your not happy
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