glassishalffull Posted October 26, 2012 Posted October 26, 2012 First I want to say thank you. I've been reading the boards for about a month now and you've validated a lot of what I'm feeling so I'm not as crazy as I think I am (I think?) I thought I was on the road to reconciliation with my ex but....he decided not to choose us. Its been 42 days since he uttered words of that effect. I thought that our situation was different and we could still communicate with each other. After reading your words of wisdom on the site I began to realize that each time I heard from him I started back at square one. So....its been 14 days of no contact from me to him - its been 10 days since he last contacted me and I didn't answer. Yes, it is important to hold on to the days because it lets me know how far along I am moving in the process. The crazy part is whenever I hear I have a message on my phone I hope that it is him. Even though I know I won't/can't answer I still want to hear from him. Is he hurting like I am? Is not communicating with me making his days long or has he just moved on? I believe our time together meant something to him but now he can really just cross me off the list and move on? I just needed to vent a little and making sure I don't send off a text I'll regret later. Thank you for listening. I know some of you have gone down this road so i know you are here with me in spirit.
PYTpisces Posted October 26, 2012 Posted October 26, 2012 I'm right there with ya girl! It's been 3 weeks NC for me. Some days I feel strong and some days im a mess. One thing remains the same though, I feel victorious after making it through another day. I know how you feel about wanting to hear from him when your phone buzzes. That's because you still have feelings for him. With time and NC those feelings will get tucked away somewhere inside of you. Somewhere where they can't hurt you. Perhaps even lost for good. For me, I'm waiting for my ego to shut up about the damn thing. Don't fight the feelings cuz theyre natural. Let them be, and fight the good fight with NC. You're doing great. It helps me to post here when I feel emotions randomnly bubbling over.
Author glassishalffull Posted October 28, 2012 Author Posted October 28, 2012 I guess I should be careful what I ask for. Had a text message and I am somewhat in a tizzy right now. It was simple hi but i am now trying to distract myself to think about everything but this freaking text!!!! Aaarrgghh!
PYTpisces Posted October 28, 2012 Posted October 28, 2012 Remind yourself of the disappointments that followed in the past when you responded. Stay strong !!
Author glassishalffull Posted October 28, 2012 Author Posted October 28, 2012 Thank you. I just sent a text on I was feeling about these drop by hellos......I sent it to myself so I have a little satisfaction! 15 days and counting.....
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