a.b Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 I think sometimes people convince themselves all too easily that they are in love with someone. I was certain a month ago that I was in love, we seem to get on like a house on fire and I loved talking to her all the time, seeing her, spending time with her etc etc. And I thought I loved her, until now (or recently I just never said till now). I think I was in love with the potential future that we had and all the plans we made. I would lay about day dreaming about what things we would do and our future. But a month ago she broke up with me and cheated on me. And sure I was extremely upset and angry and I went through a grieving process, but here I am a few weeks later and I feel fine. Still smarts a bit if I think about it but I don't cry or get upset anymore. So I've come to realise maybe it was not love afterall, and everyone out there would do well to try and work out the same thing. Don't fool yourself into a pit of depression and convince yourself of something that wasn't.
KatZee Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 (edited) I know I loved the idea of him. Before I found out what a lying, cheating bastard my ex was, I loved him. I saw so much good in him. He had me fooled so fully. The way he portrayed himself to me, to his friends, to his family was this oh so awesome, caring, self-less, nice guy. As time went on he started to crack at the seams and the real him started to seep through...I started to see who he was. A tad controlling, selfish, self-absorbed, he had a "holier than thou" attitude, he could do no wrong, he was a chronic liar, a cheater, irresponsible, disrespectful, a coward... I had loved what I THOUGHT he was. When I realized everything he REALLY was... it was fairly easy for me to just be dumped and never look back. Honestly after a couple weeks, I didn't even have the desire to reach out to him at all. It's 5 months post break up now and I've never had the itch to reach out, or to apologize for the nasty things I finally said to him. I couldn't care if he lived or died. I'm not curious about his life, I frankly don't give a s.hit about him at all. I want absolutely nothing to do with him, and I see how much better off I am without him in my life. My friend posted this on FB today and it couldn't be more true. "If you try extra hard to make people see you in a certain light, there is obviously some inconsistancy within yourself that brings about these constant validations. This goes back to the simple notion that good people dnt need to beef up and illustrate how wonderful they really are, people will see it on there own. Im not going to praise someone that tells me how great they are, rather identify them with the peice of s.hit things they do." Edited October 25, 2012 by KatZee 1
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