ElroyJetz Posted July 31, 2004 Posted July 31, 2004 Hi everyone. I just want to say that I enjoy reading other members posts about relationships. Now I can safely say that I am not alone. The effects of two breakups over the past two years are hitting me like ton of bricks. I dated a girl for a period of over two years. The relationship at first was filled with passion. We never went a day without talking. We spent a lot of time together, did many things and were very romantic towards eachother. We had our ups and downs but we usually made it through. Unfortunately, she did a lot of things that made me very uncomfortable, and that was a good portion of the friction and unease in this relationship. Against my insecurity and feelings, she kept in contact with a good portion of her ex's and that made me feel like crap. I shrugged it off even though it really bothered me. A little bit after the two year mark, things began to fade. She moved back home with her parents and pretty muched issued me an ultimatum to get my own place and provide her with an engagement ring. Well i listened to my heart and evaluated my life situation and we had to go our separate ways. Here is the thing, I wasn't that really upset, I did not cry, mourn, grieve at all. About a month later I met another girl. I should of not let my guard down but I did, and I fell for this girl in a huge way. I wrote her poems, sent her flowers and things were ok for about two months and fell apart. She became very nasty and would be very verbally abusive and manipulative towards me. It was a terrible situation. I can say in hindsight that she had something wrong with her melon. Breaking up with the abusive chick devastated me. I am a cop, have my head on straight and never let anyone get the best of me. Well she did. I became depressed, lost 47 lbs and had to go talk to a therapist. This was about a year ago and I ended all contact with her over a year ago. I have been doing my own thing for the past year and recently I have felt very alone and lonely. I found out that the girl I dated for two years is getting married and that made me feel terrible. I don't think I should of rushed into another relationship so quickly although I did. A year has gone by and I wonder from day to day if I am going to be alone forever. My sibling is married with 3 beatiful kids who I adore. I pulled a car in the parking lot of a huge wedding hall last night. Just as I was getting back in my car the bride and groom emerged to enter their limo and it really hit home, I do not want to be alone. Will I ever find my soulmate ? I feel better composing this.
TommyGirl Posted August 1, 2004 Posted August 1, 2004 I think that you will find that special lady one day. Did you ever want your ex-girlfriend of two years back? Or were just sad of the thought of her being married?
jonyx18 Posted August 2, 2004 Posted August 2, 2004 ur feeling what i am feeling u want to know that someone is there at all times to understand u and be by your side im 21 now but i have been in serious relationships since i turned 14 thes last 2 month have been very hard on me9 its really been 1 yr because i had wanted to seperate from my ex for that time i was just affraid of being alone) i don't know how to be by myself i miss the companionship iv'e never really been the party girl i prefer to stay at home with my man a cuddle or stay home and watch movies go play basket ball together i know it sounds pretty ridiculous but i like to devote almost all my time to that person the only problem is to me a relationship isn't suppose to be serious i belive my man should be my man, brother father and best friend all at once and i definitely need to love his personality wich basically has to be like mines adventurious fun loving and silly i cant seem to find anyone mabe its because im not ready so i know how u feel u haven't met the right person i think there is someone for everyone dont rush or even look for it it wil come to u i know thats what ive been doing
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