sendme Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 broke NC.... I saw him today for the first time in 27 days and I couldn't handle it... I broke NC... 24 days and I called him.... damn it... it was actually an ok conversation... he seemed pleased to hear from me, pretty sure he's still dating the other girl... but he apologized for how terrible he was to me the last day we talked... he was nice... I was nice... I cried a lot... he seemed calmer and more humble... and we talked about some of our issues... pretty far from a reconciliation... and I'm actually ok we didn't reconcile... he said he had been missing me every day... and that he was looking for a new place to move into... he said the "y?" text message he sent a few weeks ago was a test to see if I would respond and when I didn't he figured he'd leave me alone to heal... I don't know what this means yet... but I'm ok with it... I'm not any more or less in love with him because we talked... and he was pretty blatantly honest about trying to steer the conversation away from things that would hurt me more (like the other girl)... so I'm not hurting any more than I was before... perhaps I'm even feeling slightly better to know that he didn't just use me up and throw me aside without a thought... at least if he's throwing me away it's with a thought...
curiouslyhuman Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 broke NC.... I saw him today for the first time in 27 days and I couldn't handle it... I broke NC... 24 days and I called him.... damn it... it was actually an ok conversation... he seemed pleased to hear from me, pretty sure he's still dating the other girl... but he apologized for how terrible he was to me the last day we talked... he was nice... I was nice... I cried a lot... he seemed calmer and more humble... and we talked about some of our issues... pretty far from a reconciliation... and I'm actually ok we didn't reconcile... he said he had been missing me every day... and that he was looking for a new place to move into... he said the "y?" text message he sent a few weeks ago was a test to see if I would respond and when I didn't he figured he'd leave me alone to heal... I don't know what this means yet... but I'm ok with it... I'm not any more or less in love with him because we talked... and he was pretty blatantly honest about trying to steer the conversation away from things that would hurt me more (like the other girl)... so I'm not hurting any more than I was before... perhaps I'm even feeling slightly better to know that he didn't just use me up and throw me aside without a thought... at least if he's throwing me away it's with a thought... Oh no, ive read some of your posts sendme and this i think is a setback. You feel better because you contacted him and got a dose of something youve been wanting for a while but have been resisting. Hopefully it will not worsen anything and i hope so for you. Try now and get to a point where you dont care if you see him. Its hard, but avoid it as much as possible until you can get control over how you feel. Crying and him not trying to hurt you and signs that you are still weak emotionally towards him, which is what you are trying to avoid.
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