sendme Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 Okay LS... this is what we're good for right... supporting each other? I just saw my ex... we've been NC for 24 days... I haven't seen him in 27 days... and I saw him... just a glimpse through his window (I have to go by his house any time I go anywhere), I stopped dead in my tracks thought the wind had been knocked out of me, the only thing that stopped me from knocking on his door was the fact that I had just finished an 8 mile run and look like a hot mess.... so... do what you always do and remind me why I shouldn't go over there tonight.... in the meantime... I'm going to shower... and drink a glass of wine... yep its that bad I'm drinking in the shower....
NavyAirTraffic Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 (edited) Okay LS... this is what we're good for right... supporting each other? I just saw my ex... we've been NC for 24 days... I haven't seen him in 27 days... and I saw him... just a glimpse through his window (I have to go by his house any time I go anywhere), I stopped dead in my tracks thought the wind had been knocked out of me, the only thing that stopped me from knocking on his door was the fact that I had just finished an 8 mile run and look like a hot mess.... so... do what you always do and remind me why I shouldn't go over there tonight.... in the meantime... I'm going to shower... and drink a glass of wine... yep its that bad I'm drinking in the shower.... Well I'll give it a shot. Today I was on the toilet at work (might as well give you the entire story) and I've been thinking about my ex a lot today (dreamt about her all night last night, first dream of her ever). Well while on the toilet I decided to google her name for some reason, I was directed to a flicker account, she had posted at least 10 pictures of her with her new man. She looked so happy and looked in love. Her status said "taken", she noted "my boyfriend is amazing" (same thing she called me). At the end of all this I was at work, crying on the toilet. Not easy to admit, at all..... Moral of the story, do you really want to know what is on the other side of the door (other side of the google search for me)? Are you ready prepared to cry on the toilet? Edited October 25, 2012 by NavyAirTraffic
gonefishin Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 Sorry to here your story navy air traffic.... I know we'd all prefer a kick in the nuts before any of this love hurt.. Hope your ok .. I know I've cried more the last month than my entire life.. Lets just say thank god for this forum!!!! As for the original poster ... Keep doing what your doing your doing great Reward yourself with the vino and relax Maybe sleep on it u feel the same in the morning Go get in touch.. But do it when your emotions are back in check!!
songbird70 Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 Well I'll give it a shot. Today I was on the toilet at work (might as well give you the entire story) and I've been thinking about my ex a lot today (dreamt about her all night last night, first dream of her ever). Well while on the toilet I decided to google her name for some reason, I was directed to a flicker account, she had posted at least 10 pictures of her with her new man. She looked so happy and looked in love. Her status said "taken", she noted "my boyfriend is amazing" (same thing she called me). At the end of all this I was at work, crying on the toilet. Not easy to admit, at all..... Moral of the story, do you really want to know what is on the other side of the door (other side of the google search for me)? Are you ready prepared to cry on the toilet? @NavyAir...I don't post much on here, but I do read the threads often. At this particular time I felt compelled to respond to your response...lol. Didn't you just have sex with your ex a week ago???? And you really think she is 'happy with her new man'??? Take it from a woman...it's a front. There is nooooo way she is so damn happy if she just got out your bed and with another man. If she was so 'happy', she would have not been with you 'sexually' in the first place...ijs!!! As for the OP...I'm sorry you have to go through that but that would be hard as hell to past your ex on a daily basis and continue NC. I would have crumbled by now, but since you have been so strong I would suggest KEEP GOING!!! Don't look at that window when you pass it and let him see you passing without even noticing him there! Bet that will get a rise out of him...lol...good luck to ya both!
mishy Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 Don't go!!!!!! :eek::eek::eek::eek::eek::eek::eek::eek::eek::eek::eek: he abused you, dont go back!!!!
mishy Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 Well I'll give it a shot. Today I was on the toilet at work (might as well give you the entire story) and I've been thinking about my ex a lot today (dreamt about her all night last night, first dream of her ever). Well while on the toilet I decided to google her name for some reason, I was directed to a flicker account, she had posted at least 10 pictures of her with her new man. She looked so happy and looked in love. Her status said "taken", she noted "my boyfriend is amazing" (same thing she called me). At the end of all this I was at work, crying on the toilet. Not easy to admit, at all..... Moral of the story, do you really want to know what is on the other side of the door (other side of the google search for me)? Are you ready prepared to cry on the toilet? damn google!!!! ugh navy feel for you, thats rough.:( You must keep in mind though that women can be very cunning and she may have put it there knowing you would one day be in the work toilet googling her name in a weak moment.
NavyAirTraffic Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 @NavyAir...I don't post much on here, but I do read the threads often. At this particular time I felt compelled to respond to your response...lol. Didn't you just have sex with your ex a week ago???? And you really think she is 'happy with her new man'??? Take it from a woman...it's a front. There is nooooo way she is so damn happy if she just got out your bed and with another man. If she was so 'happy', she would have not been with you 'sexually' in the first place...ijs!!! As for the OP...I'm sorry you have to go through that but that would be hard as hell to past your ex on a daily basis and continue NC. I would have crumbled by now, but since you have been so strong I would suggest KEEP GOING!!! Don't look at that window when you pass it and let him see you passing without even noticing him there! Bet that will get a rise out of him...lol...good luck to ya both! Firstly i'm not looking to hijack this thread, so stay strong sendme!!! This is all about you!!! SB yes, a week ago yesterday she was in my bed. I hear what your saying, front or not, I NEED to believe the pictures I saw. Was just another huge step towards moving on. I'm not devistated, more angry at myself for googling her. Sendme, same thing for you. Nothing good came from googling her. Can you think of a long term positive that will come from knocking on his door???
Author sendme Posted October 25, 2012 Author Posted October 25, 2012 navyairtraffic..... aaaahhhh that sucks! and you're right I don't want to be crying on a toilet... although I seem to spend a lot of time crying in my car... I hate that I took so much from him... so much abuse and hatred and cheating... and now it's like he doesn't even miss me... I hate every moment of this.....
mishy Posted October 25, 2012 Posted October 25, 2012 (edited) MISHY your signature rocks!! I'll lend it to you! You should write it down, its totally relevant to your guy, i think they are similar. Its the "wave" that you have to get yourself through. I was driving back home in the car today and ugh this wave of wanting to text him hit me, it was overwhelming and i thought , ok if i feel the same in two hrs i can text. Iknew i wouldnt feel the same in two hours, and i didnt text. I think the waves are very similar (but different) to what you experience when someone dies- like when my parents died i had these overwhelming waves of grief that came and went for the first 2 years or so, and you just have to ride them to get past it. Like what they say- if you are going through hell, keep going. ** Edited October 25, 2012 by mishy
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