ParadeRain Posted October 24, 2012 Posted October 24, 2012 I'm 20 and only been in love once, and from the whole situation start to end I've learned so much my brain hurts. I see people coming on here asking about being "friends" with the person who broke their heart... I can break down from what I've learned and the way my mind works - The way I see it is, the girlfriends I've had in the past have obviously all moved on now, living their life, some even have kids... I'm indifferent to it all and couldn't care less, I am friends with some of them... but I have no emotional connection with them, no intimate feelings, it's all good. But my EX, the girl who I love(d)? - when I think into it, the possibility of being friends? watching her move on with her life, dating other guys, NO CHANCE, I have an emotional connection to her, I have the strongest emotional connection possible... love, and to see her moving on like that and being around to watch it would HURT me, why would I be friends with somebody who is hurting me like that?... why would YOU be friends with somebody who is hurting you? And it's the same for the future... being my first love and heart break I will always remember it, and she will always be the witch who made this year the worst of my life... I wasn't this messed up when my cousin was murdered, or when my grandparents died, or when my cat got ran over... she symbolized the worst moment in my life, the best moments too, but that's overshadowed by the bad... she represents the time when I felt the lowest I have ever felt... How could I ever want to be friends with that? I hate her guts, I despise her, you might call me bitter and a mean person, like I have no right to feel that way? maybe you're a pathetic do-gooder doormat?... the type to get punched in the face and not fight back... Not me, I'm no pussy, one of the things I learned from losing her is I had forgotten that I had a set of balls between my legs, and I reserve my right to say F that bitch who put me at an all time low, under her spell of loving her and then crushed my world... be friends? I would rather slip and fall in sh*t every day for the rest of my life. 1
Million.to.1 Posted October 24, 2012 Posted October 24, 2012 I felt like this with my boyfriend of 2 years when i was 21. he left me for someone else and i was devastated. It took a long time to get over him. Well over a year... It was my first love and first massive heart break. Now I'm 33, and i really couldn't give a ****. Time will heal. Don't be friends if you are still angry and hurting. It will serve you nothing. Give it time and indifference may come... but stay away in the meantime.
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