RSTRM95 Posted October 23, 2012 Posted October 23, 2012 (edited) (it'll be a long one) ok so, about 3 months ago, i met this guy when i went on a little trip with a friend. we hung out with one of her old best friends. she wanted us to meet because we have a lot of the same values and personality traits- he seemed like the male version of me. he added facebook a week before we met in person, because she told him a little about me, and he wanted to get to know me a little bit. i felt very comfortable with him when we met in person. like i've known him for a long time. and I am usually aloof and shy around people. but it was so different with him. we hung out with him most of the time we were there, which was for the weekend. Well, the next day, the three of us went camping. we had a fire and just goofed off until it got dark, then we went into the tent to sleep. Me and him cuddled and kissed. he was my first kiss ( we are both 17). And though we didn't have sex, etc, he stroked my back like he already knew that it was my "zone". The next day we had to leave, and we took him home. 10 mins later he texted me " i miss you already". so, we continue to text every day. that turned to sexting.. lol. we got along great, and he's say things like "i've never met anyone like you" or "everyone else fades in comparison". that made my heart smile. Then i visit him one last time for the summer. We hung out on the beach, in the car (where we all sleeped lol), and just wherever. we would cuddle in the back ( it's an suv) and kiss. one night, we had a fire on the beach, and he officially asked me out. of course i said yes! we kissed some more lol and said our goodbyes since he had to work the next morning. he even came to a near death experience, so i call him all freaked out, but he was fine. and that's when he said "i think i love you babe". what girl wouldn't melt over that? he even came to visit me for three hours- and he lived 5 hours away! everything was going good for about a month.. then homecoming week came and i believe he started to feel lonely and had a bit of self pity, because he didn't want to make me mad and go with another girl... things started to go downhill from here.. and i too began to have my own problems at home and school, which made me, honestly a little mentally unstable. He was being stressed out by school and working long hours. i began to tell him to be paitent with me, he's my first, and i don't fully know what im doing. and i can see how a guy would be unattracted to that. i kept on telling him to work with me, be faithful. i also thought he was afraid of getting hurt, and i tried to hard to make it work. he asked to just be friends and see where that went, but i didn't want to loose him- especially after he said he loved me! but i feel i pushed him too hard and he didn't like that. he began to talk to me less that he was (every day). I agreed to let him be "single" for a few days, and he said it felt good to not be tied down. sure, i was hurt. bad. but i wanted to keep going... and he started talking to me less and less. i even told him i was afraid of going fast, because i didn't want us to "burn out". and i told him that i get depressed at times. we went 2 weeks without talking. so, i had to get on facebook to see if he's relpy to me. and oh did he ever. her said he wasnt talking to me because he was too busy, and because he didnt want to date me anymore. i said some things i cannot remember, but he had his mind set. and he was a total dick about it. didn't want to work it out. wanted me gone and out of his life. couldn't even call me. I texted him that same night saying that i've been depressed for the past week, and this just made me feel like dieing. then i asked if we could remain friends. he said no. he doesnt want to be my friend. he was breaking up with me because he didnt like me, and i didnt give him a real reason to not like me, besides being too pushy. i didnt cheat or anything, i was all for him. and he's been cheated on before, and didnt want it to happen again. my friend said that's so unlike him, he was usually sweet and caring. she was very shocked.. but he didnt care at all this time! he even blocked me from his facebook. so i've been trying to get over him for the past week. i am doing better, going out with friends enjoying myself, talking to guy friends to feel a bit more.. comforted? but i still love him is the thing. i've never met a guy like him. i thought he was "the one". I know i must move on, but i really do want him back.. not too sure what to do... we havent talked since he dumped me, and i dont want to show him that i want him back, because i've been too pushy already. so.. any thoughts? Edited October 23, 2012 by RSTRM95
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