socrushed Posted October 23, 2012 Posted October 23, 2012 half a year ago this girl at work made my mind so sick. I was completely infatuated with her. Total obsession, thinking about her 24/7, riding the emotional rollercoaster of extreme emotional highs and lows. I have never felt that way so strongly about anyone before for this long even though I never even went out on a date with her. I still think about her at least a couple times a day, but it's gotten a lot better since i changed shifts and haven't seen her for months. Now i am going to see her again in a couple weeks, as our shifts align again. Just her presence is going to trigger my feelings again. I'm going to be sick again. help me? i feel like a helpless victim with no control over my mind and emotions. I have no power and no control over my life.
todreaminblue Posted October 23, 2012 Posted October 23, 2012 half a year ago this girl at work made my mind so sick. I was completely infatuated with her. Total obsession, thinking about her 24/7, riding the emotional rollercoaster of extreme emotional highs and lows. I have never felt that way so strongly about anyone before for this long even though I never even went out on a date with her. I still think about her at least a couple times a day, but it's gotten a lot better since i changed shifts and haven't seen her for months. Now i am going to see her again in a couple weeks, as our shifts align again. Just her presence is going to trigger my feelings again. I'm going to be sick again. help me? i feel like a helpless victim with no control over my mind and emotions. I have no power and no control over my life. you can express how you feel so you have some self control you recognize that you have strong emotions if you can express your emotions, you can deal, even when you feel you wont be able to, you will because you simply recognise them and want to control them ..its when you dont care sound the alarm ......i have ridden highs and lows for a couple of months now...i am gradually finding times when i am calmer and there are other triggers that can take place to make me falter....i pray and i rest because it is draining........i exercise to deal with hyper emotions...and then i rest....when i am in control hopefully i can get some order like i am extremely messy at th emoment but concentrating on dealing with emotions is priority number one....i have hope i will gain control...i have feelings for someone too.....they are strong emotions....i don't make any major decisions while i am in a high energy state...therapy 101 without the therapist...i have contemplated many things and i discard them, i process things in my own time and i am not putting pressure on myself not to feel....well a little bit....i analyse too much.... if you wanted too you could see your doctor and talk about mood stabilizers there are some around and anti depressants can sometimes help with shifts of mood that life affecting for you.the sick feeling if it makes you retch could be anxiety related to the stress you feel not being able to control your emotions...i have done the medication thing.......with much soul searching and praying i have decided its not for me...ill deal with it how i am now....and yes i struggle......so will you.....talk to your doctor and try taking up some form of exercise to release the endorphins caught up in your stress. I have stayed out of hospital the longest time doing it without medication but i have taken medication for a very long time before this if i didnt take i tback then i dont think i would be here now not taking it..i contribute that to my renewed faith that i have wanted to follow fro a long time i have etruth in my life and i trust that.......so for you i suggest talk to your doctor adn see what he or she can advise you...i wish you hope and serenity......look up the serenity prayer it soothes me...ohhhh music helps a lot too headphones and music in your ears...hugs....deb
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