Sazerac Posted November 6, 2012 Posted November 6, 2012 I don't know what I'm going to do now, but I had the weekend of my life. Treat it as such, and move on. You can't say you weren't warned, on all counts. It's time to DTMFA.
Author Onionator Posted November 6, 2012 Author Posted November 6, 2012 Treat it as such, and move on. You can't say you weren't warned, on all counts. It's time to DTMFA. Well that's what I have done. I still want her as a friend because before she was this cheating bitter girlfriend she was my best friend for 4 years. There will always be something sexual between us and we both know that and frankly I am fine with it right now.
VeveCakes Posted November 6, 2012 Posted November 6, 2012 Huge waste of time and your life. Forget this girl, seriously. Plenty of cool chicks within a 50 mile radius you can fall for.
Author Onionator Posted November 6, 2012 Author Posted November 6, 2012 Huge waste of time and your life. Forget this girl, seriously. Plenty of cool chicks within a 50 mile radius you can fall for. Definitely, compared to who she is now she doesn't deserve a thought from me. I'm still stuck in the past thinking the girl that did deserve everything from me is still there somewhere.
Author Onionator Posted November 10, 2012 Author Posted November 10, 2012 So we broke it off. We're not together anymore but it feels like not much has changed. Keep in mind we have been best friends for 5 1/2 years now so I can't just let her go entirely. Although I wish I could, I've always had the feeling that she was "my girl" but that's no longer the case. I told her how I feel about us not being together anymore, that I hate it but I can no longer really be with her if it's going to be like this and I've told her that I wish I could just forget her and move on with my life, but then it always comes back to the fact that we've known each other since childhood and have been best friends for much longer than we were a couple and never had a problem with it. The only question now is, can we go back to that friendship? I'm very doubtful of it because I've seen this horrible side of her, but I'm giving it a chance. We came up with the idea of "best friends with benefits"...silly yeah...but keeps me going. Either way I had a great weekend with her and love her to death but at this point in time we're not meant to date. I hope our amazing friendship can go back to what it was, and if it can't I can honestly say that it was a great ride (up until the end of course).
silicone Posted November 15, 2012 Posted November 15, 2012 Personally, I don't think that it would be possible for you to get back to your friendship.
Author Onionator Posted November 17, 2012 Author Posted November 17, 2012 I've decided to cut contact for the time being. Mostly because I just need time and space to try and move on from the broken relationship and hopefully sometime in the future to become friends on a certain level again. She's starting to see the guy she cheated on me with (not dating yet but I'm sure that's on the way) and frankly as much as it tears me up I've somewhat grown numb to it.
SJC2008 Posted November 17, 2012 Posted November 17, 2012 Clear something up for me. You met 4-5 years ago online and are 18/19 now?? Also you said in 2 weeks, it'll be the first time you will see her??
Author Onionator Posted November 17, 2012 Author Posted November 17, 2012 Yeah met 5.5 years ago online. Kinda talked on and off and made it official last december. I visited her 2 weeks ago (2 weeks after she had gone on a date with this guy). We had a fun weekend together...extremely comfortable for people who had just met. No awkwardness whatsoever and I found that fascinating. When I got back she went out with him again to "compare" what it felt like. We ended up breaking it off about a week ago and I tried to just stay friends with her but it tore me up thinking about her with someone else. Today I deleted her off everything and told her that I needed some time and space and that we couldn't be friends right now. She cried, telling me she didnt want to lose me cause I'd been around since her childhood etc etc but I'm going to try this NC thing in hopes of getting over it and maybe being friends again (with some benefits).
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