DavidNarn Posted October 16, 2012 Posted October 16, 2012 My girlfriend and i decided to end things..we only made it a month into her being in college.. this weekend we were supposed to celebrate our one year more so it was her decision. i was living her life. i was acting crazy when she went out to parties without me. if she didnt text me right away or took hours to get back at me. i pushed her away. she wants me to live my own life and grow as a person.. we did it over skype. we both just cried sooo hard while we were breaking up. we both didnt want it to happen. but it was needed. i can now focus on my life now.. this was last night. i quit my gas station job and moved to the coast with my dad today. to start new.. i keep getting happy then randomly i just break down. she was so beautiful. so funny i lost her. we were talking about getting married and starting our life. here is the thing. she wants to try again after i get my own life and grow as a person. she still wants to have contact with me. i told her thats just too hard. im either her bf or im out completely.. anyways. ive never gone through a breakup till now. at least a long relationship break up. idk how to deal with this. staying busy doesnt help. she texted me today and told me she loves me so much. i told her i love her too. this is so hard. so hard. i wanna just curl up in a ball and die. we left on really good terms though thankfully. idk how to cope..
ellowmay Posted October 16, 2012 Posted October 16, 2012 It sucks that it is rough to stay in contact, however being on good terms is a very good reward from the relationship. It might be easier if you didn't talk to her (at least in intimate ways, or I-Love-You ways) for a while just so you can get some space mentally. I would just talk to her about that and set some boundaries so you guys can still communicate without filling up your friendship with bitter poison of regret or whatever. I hope that you feel better, it truly is a bitter feeling.
Author DavidNarn Posted October 16, 2012 Author Posted October 16, 2012 i just miss her so badly. i really really do we were so good. nothing was bad till college
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