me not to do it!

[BrokenDreamCatcher]

I want to contact him right now, I'm about to lose it.

Ugh! Why should I? He isn't..he should just be sitting in his hotel room. Or is he too busy talking to her on the phone??? I'm so stupid, I actually was just about to txt him and ask how his first day was! Why the hell should I care! I'm just laying here in bed, I can't sleep and have so much going through my head. I don't want to contact him!

[mishy]

i feel exactly the same, sitting here loking at the texts i last sent him, trying to reason with myself that i have said what i wanted to say already... there isnt any point saying anything else. It will just hurt me more. Do i even want his answers?? I dont want to know about "her". Its best to know nothing.

 

Just dont text, i am trying not to too.

[geegirl]

Yes, you should contact him. Try to resume what you had with him. Let him cheat on you again and then go back to NC. Then repeat the pattern.

 

Go back and read your first thread and then read it again. Step back, compose yourself and remind yourself of who he is.

 

He's a liar and a cheat. Aim higher.

[mishy]

i just read the first thread too. He is manipulative, and has completely overreacted so that you panic and apologise for upsetting him, so that he has full control again. Same thing the guy i was seeing did, over and over again

[dreamstate83]

Try giving the second link in my signature a read. You have some soul searching to do. I know it's not easy to go through what you are going through. I was there about 10 years ago. Stay strong, you are in good company here on loveshack.

[BrokenDreamCatcher]

Thank You guys so much! I know you're right! It is just hard to accept. That someone can lie and be so fake. It's disgusting!

 

I will read that, thank you!

[ellowmay]

I definitely understand. I feel the same way atm. I don't want to beg, it's humiliating. But I just want to feel loved and wanted and like everything is ok. But all that is a lie.