bradjonesss Posted October 16, 2012 Posted October 16, 2012 You know as a man being 25 years old I never thought things would get to this point. I was never into having a relationship or have a girlfriend and I never wanted a relationship in my age. But I guess never say never. About 2 years ago I met a girl randomly and she had a troubled past as a child. Un explainable things had happend to her that she never dealt with. ( she is now 22). She had commitment issues and daddy issues and her past effected our relationship ( the sexual part) in a way which I was okay with. When I met her I was not looking for anything at all. But it became something special the connection we had, the way she listened, she accepted me for who I was and I did with her. I let my guard down and I trusted her as she did with me. At first we didnt date or anything it was 3 months after we had hung out that she told me she was ready to date me. I didn't pressure her I just told her "hey if you ever want to I am open to the idea". I did things I normally didnt 1) waited to have sex with her because I actually cared about her ( as a guy my age that was hard but I cared about her), 2) I didn't let my past "relationships" or people I had dated effect my judgment with her 3) I was patient. I was a great boy friend I like to think Floweres once every two months, supportive, when she was on her period and freaked out I was be patient not argue. We had a great solid relationship for 2 years. She opened up to me like she never did before she wasnt good with emotions especially with what had happend to her in her child hood. She told me what had happend and its not something as being a women or a child of any sort any one deserves to ****ing go through. It effected our relationship because sometimes shed be in moods I feel like because what had happend, because she had never faced those demons. But I was still there for her. Towards the last 4 months of our relatonship I was there for her but i was going out with my friends a little more and she was going out with hers as well, I never cheated on her or thought about doing so and would always invite her out with me, she didnt want to. We would hangout almost everyday ( which is something that could have triggered the break up having me there all the time and then me going out and hanging out with my friends, i thought that was healthy for us though we never really argued but she would get frustrated less and everyone needs time on their own to take care of themselves and just be). We also had an amazing sex life she would say the same thing we had great sexual chemistry. Out of the blue she ended up breaking up with me about four months ago, she went out with her friends one night when I was out with mine. Called me next morning didnt hangout with me on that day and then the next morning I knew what was comming she told me to meet her at starbucks and she just broke up with me. I was and am devistated. She tried to keep contact with me she wrote me a letter said shes never loved anyone as much as she loved me she probably never will ( isnt that where if two people love eachother they stick together? isnt that love if you love someone why not stay together). Those questions were going through my mind. She would call me to hangout after the break up and we did we hooked up she would kiss me tell me she loved me whenever I would say I love u shed say it back. It came to a point last week where I could not mentally , emotionally do that anymore. She ended up being a bad person. Everything was on her time now, she was being selfish, and it was not the same offcourse because we were not together. I know how it feels when a person needs to be free. And so what I did was I just cut her off , I didnt want to be her friend I feel like I just cant be stuck in the friend zone with her. To me she will always be the girl who got away. Now Its been a week since I havnt contacted her, i told her I would be there for her when she is ready and hopefully it wont be too late then on my part" because who knows what can happen she might come back and I might have found something better. She broke up with me and i feel I made the right choice by ending it. Especially when she said "hooking up with u after we broke up was a mistake" I feel like she is lost, doesnt know what she wants.. and she will never deal with her past and that is not my problem anymore. What are the chances she will come back? I know like "maybe" staying friends with her wouldve been a "good" idea but It was un healthy I emotionally could not handle it and was selfish for once. I also think maybe seeing she can not "have her cake and eat it too" , and maybe after she dates some ass holes she will realize, or maybe she wont. I guess I am using this to vent and to ask some men and some women if I made the correct decision to cut her off. I probably not probably i know I could have stuck around and hooked up with her if I wanted but I just decided to respect my self for once.
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