JayL Posted October 15, 2012 Posted October 15, 2012 (edited) I would like to give my sincerest thanks to everyone who had given me very good advice and opened my eyes. I am now at the acceptance stage (or at least VERY close to it) and may not be very active here soon, as I've picked up extra activities lately that has really kept me busy. I still think about her everyday, I still occasionally reach for my phone every morning and have that disappointed feeling every morning as I've gotten used to seeing her "good morning text message" everyday, that "good night" text message or call every night, that "are you home yet?" call/text every night. I still miss the days where I'll drive straight to her place right after work to have dinner with her and her family, the weekends we spent together walking by the lakeside, doing things together, waking up early to have brunch together, cooking dinner together, going to my friend's birthday together etc. I miss her smile, her kisses, her touch, her presence and most especially, the way she made me feel whenever I was with her. I've just come to accept that she's just not for me and it just wasn't meant to be. That we tried to be together, that it may not be her intention to string me along, but in the end, it's just not what's meant for me. To those familiar with my story, I was strung along by a female who liked me, wanted to be with me, but admitted in the end of the relationship that she did not like me enough to be in a committed relationship with me, but she tried, hence we made it that far. The very high hopes given to me through sex, introducing me to her entire family, inviting me over to have lunch and dinner with her family, but at the same time was confused by her unstable feelings towards me, or what we refer to as the "hot and cold" approach. One of my friends is currently going through the same thing and I'm about to give him a good kick in the teeth very soon. To those still suffering, you will soon see the light at the end of the tunnel. Time will heal the wounds, time will give you that closure. You may keep analyzing things on your head over and over again for days, months, to years, but in the end, it won't change a thing. Feel the pain, let it all out and when the time comes that you're finding yourself numb and just forcing yourself to cry, get up, dust yourself off and move on. It is healthy to be around friends and family that truly care, but you also need that alone time to truly feel that pain and don't be afraid to face it. It is the only way to get over it. Good luck everyone and thanks again! Edited October 15, 2012 by JayL
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