Mikeyyy Posted October 15, 2012 Posted October 15, 2012 We met her first day of college randoomly like I had zero chance of meeting her. We started hanging out eeryday and eventually started dating. We dated for 7-8 months and 2 months in I got diagnosed with anxiety/panic attacks and went on a lot of meds. It was very tough for both of us and we both went through a lot together. I had my first attack with her. we got into a big arguement via text and said many mean things to each other and i said it was over. She then wanted to work it out and we still were arguing over the same thing it's stupid and got blown outta perportion. I now haven't spoke to her since bc we were on summer break but I did write her a letter explaining everything that i went through. i also thanked her and told her how glad I am to have her in my life and that ill always live her. she is still mad and says she wants nothing to do with me and that she is over it. It just amazes me how quickly she can get over something like this I asked her to be friends and she didn't give me an answer just told me she's over it. I just got back up to school and never see her. I also found out she is in a new relationship with a kid she kissed before we went out and she cried on the phone to me telling me how much of a mistake she made and didn't feel anything like when we kissed. I also found out that about a little over a month after the breakup she started dating and hanging out with this kid. Broke communication in april they started in may. I feel like she just jumped into it because she knew that he liked her, and she is hurt. We went through a lot and it just kinda sucks because our relationship was nothing like how it should have been because of what I was going through at the time. It was all such bad timing and It hurts because I've never had anyone do or treat me like her except for family. Anyways do you think she in a rebound? What are the chances that'd we would start talking again? Like I said she played such a big role in my life and I still think about her and love her and probably always will.
gamman Posted October 15, 2012 Posted October 15, 2012 Let it go, dude. As hard as it is, move on. Initiate NC if you already haven't, work on yourself, and grow as a person. Good luck.
raea Posted October 16, 2012 Posted October 16, 2012 Being that you suffer from anxiety, the furthest thing from healthy you can do is live with the "what ifs." What if we start talking, what if they break up, etc. -- they are all things that HAVE NOT HAPPENED as of this moment. Focus on living in the moment. Truly living YOUR life not wondering about hers. Start to move on and heal. You know you need that, you don't know what her behavior will be so for now all you can do is look at facts and the facts are you are not with her. I hope you start to feel peace and can feel okay on your own. I understand that you love her, and as you said you may always feel that way, but loving another isn't enough and doesn't mean that they will return.
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