PlanB123 Posted October 14, 2012 Posted October 14, 2012 .....and a sense of relief has swept over me. lol. i will sleep well tonight for the first time in two weeks--since he dumped her. i know this is so strange. most people would be gutted to hear the ex is with someone else. i just prefer it because i know that the alternative is so much more ugly and the imagery is much uglier....blind drunk bathroom sex in a nightclub with a guy who's name she doesn't know nor cares to. i know i shouldn't care what she does seeing as she chose to leave me but i find strange comfort in the notion that she is being 'conservative' in a relationship rather than a rampaging party girl. i can go to the club/bar with a clear head knowing she is at home somewhere and i am the one in party mode. i am going to make the most of my head being settled while they are together. i doubt this thing is going to last and i want to be as far down the road of 'letting go' by the time she puts her party heels on again. this is all ego. i know. and ****ed up. but it is what is.
Author PlanB123 Posted October 15, 2012 Author Posted October 15, 2012 i figured that nobody would really be able to relate to this. which begs me to ask myself why i am thinking like this?
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