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Me and my 2 months old father have officially broken up. We used to be crazy in love with each other but after finding out I was pregnant I lost my trust in him because he would leave me for hours with no explanation and no phone calls. He swore he never cheated but I spent my whole pregnancy flip flopping from bitch girl friend to a loving one. I did catch him talking to a girl about hanging out sometime and when I confronted him he told me the truth he didn't think he loved me anymore and almost went to her but couldn't do it to me after all. Right before we broke up I caught him talking to another girl and he said it was because he needed to talk to a girl who didn't yell at him. We were going to take a break but it was unsuccessful all we did was fight. Now were broke up and he told me he doesn't ever want to get back with me he just wants to pay bills. He tried to get me to come over then said nevermind he just wanted me over for sex and that's ****ed up. We talked about people were " talking to" and he said it doesnt feel right talking to another girl. I'm really in avconfusing place? I love him and I did not want to break up he left me. I dont know if he is playing some game where he wants me back but he doesn't want to say it or if he is really okay with us being friends because we have a son. I do want us to be together but I don't want him to know incase he doesn't feel the same way. I would just die if I told him I still cared about him and he told me he doesnt love me. Were 20 so I'm kind of hoping having a baby and being with me was too much. I was miserable and depressed while we were together.