church9832 Posted October 12, 2012 Posted October 12, 2012 I feel like when we're all in bed and about to sleep our shields against all the emotions in the break up disappear and your wide open to the full open fire by your emotions. I am so used to being texted before I sleep. I am so used to being called I am so used to sleeping with a smile on my face It's affecting everything in my life too Two days ago I forgot to put my p plates on (provisional drivers) and I got fined but I totally deserved that but I was so distracted that's why. Then I start losing things, and when I lose things I make it a big deal regardless. It's been 2 months of the break up and 3 weeks of NC, it seems that I can bounce back from my breakdowns easier but the breakdowns become more hard hitting. I guess it's because the break up ended because of understanble reasons and none of us were really in the wrong. Life just happened.
Tree_Salmon Posted October 12, 2012 Posted October 12, 2012 I feel like when we're all in bed and about to sleep our shields against all the emotions in the break up disappear and your wide open to the full open fire by your emotions. I am so used to being texted before I sleep. I am so used to being called I am so used to sleeping with a smile on my face It's affecting everything in my life too Two days ago I forgot to put my p plates on (provisional drivers) and I got fined but I totally deserved that but I was so distracted that's why. Then I start losing things, and when I lose things I make it a big deal regardless. It's been 2 months of the break up and 3 weeks of NC, it seems that I can bounce back from my breakdowns easier but the breakdowns become more hard hitting. I guess it's because the break up ended because of understanble reasons and none of us were really in the wrong. Life just happened. One of he negatives of some relationships is that we become dependent on the little quirks that we developed with each other over the years. Even I was guilty of this. After a long enough period of time (in my case 6 years) you get really used to hearing or seeing them at a certain time. It takes some getting used to at first but eventually you will be glad to have your time back.
River Rain Posted October 12, 2012 Posted October 12, 2012 I know that feeling...I always got a goodnight text or phone call. Then abruptly nothing. Instead of going to bed happy and secure, I stayed awake for hours crying and feeling completely discarded. It's good that you're keeping to no contact though, you don't want to reopen that wound and start all over again. Keep trying to take care of yourself the best you can. I spent a week in bed but then I decided I had to try to move on. I hope you can find ways to feel better because you will find love again.
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