supermanthatho Posted October 10, 2012 Posted October 10, 2012 I thought I was but nope just denial. Ive dated but nothing, Iv seen and talked to other girls but nothing. At the end of the day all that plays in my mind is my ex. And I live in a kinda small city about 1/3 of people here know each other. I've had ppl that I dont know come up to me and say hey you're ____'s ex then they tell me all the 's l u t t y' things she has done already. This makes me so sad and so depressed I really would rather hang myself. How can someone throw another person away like this so easy. I feel unloved, unwanted, rejected, I feel like I'm nothing and that my future doesnt matter. I don't care about myself anymore. I used to be antidrugs but I take gear, ice, E and whatever's thrown in my face. Majority of time when i do that stuff is when i go clubbing. Strongly thinking about suicide. Feel like it's my only option because I can't take it no more. What do I do? I've seen counselors and psychiatric therapist but nothing
Calico Posted October 10, 2012 Posted October 10, 2012 Taking drugs will make you just feel worse. You need to talk to one of the counselors and therapists you have seen and tell them about your suicidal thoughts, and you should do this right away. What you do is decide to live, and then do the work that it takes to get better. Taking drugs, letting yourself go, wallowing in depression and keeping track of what she's doing will not not help you to get better. The first step is to want that. And now you really need to call up a professional and address the suicidal thoughts. Wanting to throw your life away because some girl doesn't want to be with you anymore is a line not ever worth crossing. What would that achieve anyway? To "show her"? Don't give another person so much power. (Plus, you'd miss out on all the awesome women in the future!) Now go and call a professional or a suicide hotline. Just to talk.
JayL Posted October 10, 2012 Posted October 10, 2012 (edited) I thought I was but nope just denial. Ive dated but nothing, Iv seen and talked to other girls but nothing. At the end of the day all that plays in my mind is my ex. And I live in a kinda small city about 1/3 of people here know each other. I've had ppl that I dont know come up to me and say hey you're ____'s ex then they tell me all the 's l u t t y' things she has done already. This makes me so sad and so depressed I really would rather hang myself. How can someone throw another person away like this so easy. I feel unloved, unwanted, rejected, I feel like I'm nothing and that my future doesnt matter. I don't care about myself anymore. I used to be antidrugs but I take gear, ice, E and whatever's thrown in my face. Majority of time when i do that stuff is when i go clubbing. Strongly thinking about suicide. Feel like it's my only option because I can't take it no more. What do I do? I've seen counselors and psychiatric therapist but nothing She's not for you, you're not for her. Here's what I recently realized when I got the closure from myself of why my ex had lost interest in us. If I'm hungry, I'd want to eat enough to feel "satisfied", but her personality did not meet that "satisfaction" level of my needs as a man in a relationship. If she's hungry, she'd want to eat enough to feel "satisfied" as well, except my personality exceeded what she could take, hence she felt overwhelmed. Two personalities that "do not" compliment each other. It's only a matter of time before things ended and as for you, it is the same. While in the relationship with you, she had needs that were not met, hence the feelings had faded and it is something that is natural. As for you, you were deeply into it and you were blinded, hence you may have only seen the good things and ignored the bad things. Life does not give us any other choice but to let go and move on. One day, somewhere, some time, this person who will be a perfect match for us will cross paths with ours. I know it's hard, I've been there a few times and I'm in one again.... But you know what? Life goes on and we just have to accept whatever hardship it throws unto us and get past it.... Edited October 10, 2012 by JayL
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