PoppyLove89 Posted October 9, 2012 Posted October 9, 2012 Basically, my ex and I will have been broken up a year at the end of October. We were together for just over a year. So we've been broken up almost as long as we were ever together and yet my year without him has flown by compared to my year with him? I've done a lot of crying, hurting, worrying, replaying moments good & bad over and over in my mind...and ultimately trying to move on: - I moved to Germany for 5 months (only for me to bump into him exactly a week upon my return in July). - I got a new job. - I went back to University. - I'm socialising with my friends & what's more, I've made new ones. I should be happier, in the greater scheme of things, but I still think about him every single day and it's driving me MAD!!! Will this ever go away?! He stopped talking to me 2 months after we split and here's why: he was shacked up with some 18 year-old (he was 23 at the time). I confronted him about it & we had our final argument. I then blocked him on Facebook, deleted his number...in essence he 'doesn't exist' to me. Now he's happy as larry with her and I'm still pining for someone I don't like the true colours of. I've seen him for what he is. Having seen him on several occasions in the past couple of months, I realise: 'I don't even recognise you anymore'. I feel like he's sold out. He's not the man I fell in love with...or maybe this is the real him and he just hid it very well. Either way, he hasn't changed for the better. He's not desirable to me anymore. The guy I was in a relationship with, is essencially 'dead'. It's just some cocky, arrogant spirit that's hijacked his body. SO WHY DO I STILL MISS HIM?! Will this ever go away? I want to love someone whom I deserve & that deserves me.
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