gskyo Posted October 9, 2012 Posted October 9, 2012 (edited) This May, I joined a 2 week programme where I met this cute guy from Europe. I thought he was cute but tried to focus on my programme instead. We added each other on FB, had a few small conversations and after the 1st week of the programme. We only spoke once after the first week, where he surprised me by ending with "Kisses". I brushed it off as a Europe trend. Then, 3 weeks before our second week of the programme was suppose to continue, I checked into one of my old dating profiles just to check out cuties (I was bored) and happened on his profile. I did nothing and proceeded with life until 2 days later, I received mail from him asking me to go out with him, telling me that he isn't the type who has one night stands. I replied, sure, I'm up for it if he is. Hoping that he wasnt kidding. No contact for 3 weeks until last week, when the programme was in progress. I admit, I felt quite let down that he didnt bother to reply. I played it cool, even gave him a hug when we met on Sunday (Day1 of week2). During which he gave my stomach a tickle despite having our friends around, I think no one else saw. I have quite a good rapport with the rest of the group and made it a point to not focus on him because I feel like I've already been disappointed, I should keep my distance. I manage to avoid speaking to him on Day 2 and 3, until Day 4, when I was walking down a hall, I heard someone catcalling me, when I turned, he smiled and winked at me. I just smiled and walked away. Day 5, I had some good news and were being congratulated by friends, he came over and hug me. Day 6, the whole gang went off clubbing. As we progressed into the night, our friends started pairing off or walking off the dance floor, leaving me feeling awkward as I had to dance with him. So we dance, with a major distance between us. I don't know if he was feeling shy but I was VERY shy at that point, I could feel my cheeks burn. After the dancing, we were all heading out for supper and I borrowed his phone, but as I wasnt familiar with it, I needed help. So he held on to my fingers as I held the phone while he tinkered with it. Day 7, I think he recalled nothing because he had alcohol the day before. Though for the first time, he made a reference to what he found out about me from my online profile but I dare not push the topic. Fine, went clubbing again. AGAIN we had that awkward dance with a distance of at least 2 feet between us. After clubbing, we were walking home and he finally started talking to me, and suddenly out of nowhere he asks if I would marry him... then he tells me that I am smart and pretty, I should just be his wife... I laughed and said, what? No date to test the theory out first? Before the conversation could continue, our friends joined us. Finally, as we were about to leave, I hugged everyone goodbye but he insisted not to hug because he plans to see me again. Day 8, I was hanging out with some friends waiting to go out when he appears (I didnt know he was part of our outing group), he shook everyone's hand but hugged me (I was the only girl in the group and our friends were around). I dont know if he recalled anything about the whole marry him thing, but suddenly I found him next to me almost throughout the whole day during the outing, sitting next to me and walking alongside me. I had to make an effort to be away from him because when he was around I felt like I couldnt speak. I felt really awkward around him, I didnt know what to say and I was quiet most of the time, I kept feeling my cheeks burn, I curled my toes to calm my breathing and my heart wanted to jump out of its place. My gut suddenly told me to make the first move, so I took my camera and we took a shot together, which I then sent to him via cellphone... in the process, finally exchanging our phone numbers after knowing each other for so many months. It's the end of Day 10, no more outings until maybe in the next 3 days or so. He hasnt tried anything since I gave him my number. I'm a goofy type of girl and I get along with guys like their brothers. With him, we are both quiet and awkward. Throughout the entire programme, I kept having this feeling that he was watching me, even when I was goofing off with the guys. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM!?! Why would he be interested with a social retard like me!?! If he's serious, why is he being such a sloth!? Is he being sadistic and just messing around? Then again, having clubbed with him, he really isnt the shady type that messes with girls though he has joked about such things, he has never been seen to actually have done something like that. I also feel that alcohol makes him very brave to talk to me and to tell me corny nonsense, which makes me even more shy than I have to be. I NEED HELP!!! I dont like having such an intense feeling!!!! Especially when I dont see any shared common interests between us... and I may be leaving the country for good soon, this is bad timing!! Edited October 9, 2012 by gskyo
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