Greeniydgirl Posted October 8, 2012 Posted October 8, 2012 Today is in fact, the two year anniversary of my last breakup. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I know I still love him, why and how come, I don't know. We met about 3 years ago...at work. I was hooked pretty quickly. We were alike in almost every aspect, life, looks, and future endevars. It took me awhile to worm myself into his life but I managed, if only for a short while. I was already in love but he was still crushed over what happened with a girl 4 years ago. We dated for a short while but than he became brutally distant. I retracted at that point, also. For the fear of being hurt. We ended up getting into an argument about his aloofness and that was the end of my relationship with him. We still worked together, and I loved the heck out of him so I figured he'd give me another shot. Not so much. We avoided each others gaze and tried rounding a corner whenever the other was heading down the same hall. I wanted him to come back to me so bad, I tried going after him. With no luck, I just watched and waited. He made minor and subtle comments and advances. But nothing explosive to the point I wanted to celebrate. But he never fully came to me and told me he wanted to see me again. He tried to buy my dinner once, or carry something heavy for me, and even once telling me I was the last girl he was with. Okay, so fast forward, it's now a year after we have broken up and I've decided it's time for me to date again. When my ex finds out, he seems just a little too happy and a little too supportive. It was weird. We both keep trying to be 'friends' after that but I'm still in love and couldn't cope with being around him with out feeling sad. I ended up getting transferred. I couldn't stop thinking about my ex. I was afraid it would ruin my current relationship. My last day, he bowed his head, almost in sadness. That was over 6 months ago. I still miss him with every fiber of my being. I haven't seen him since, either. Sometimes, I want to call him. But....we had so many other chances of reconciling. I haven't been myself at all in these past 2 years since our breakup. I just don't know what to do anymore....
TaraMaiden Posted October 8, 2012 Posted October 8, 2012 No... you've only been broken up six months. Every time you establish contact, you re-link that connection. So it's hardly surprising that at six months you still feel like this. keep posting, but work on the No Contact Guide to give yourself space to heal and move on. Post here, start a coping journal, anything you need. but understand - it's more recent than you think. 1
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