Why Do I Still Love Her When Instead I Should Be Hating Her?

[LoveHurts88]

I've been so angry lately that if my friend jokingly just play fight with me I would go all out. I'm not mad at anyone I just start to get defensive and don't give a rats a$$ even if that guys bigger than me or not.

 

What I feel right now is that I should hate my EX for everything that she has done. And the fact now she's seeing someone else... But Instead I still love her and it's pissing me off. All her BS with that she's leaving the country soon so she wants a single like , Biatch F U U lying sack of potatoes.

 

It's been like 23 days NC, not going to lie it does get better although I still think about her everyday, day and night day and night. I guess time will tell and eventually she'll just be "somebody I used to know."

 

I guess through it all talking with my friends and all, lesson learned. Lay down some mother f'ing rules. Can't let no girl walk all over you. No more Mr. Nice Guy... 70 Percent Loving 30 Percent being a as$.

 

I just want to start hating her so I can just forget about eveything

[curiouslyhuman]

hating her will not solve the issue my friend. You are trying to find emotions that will help you cope with the loss of the relationship and im assuming "some" of your pride. Loving, hating, caring are all links to a past. Indifference is the key here, not because you didnt have feeling for her then or now, but because in a future light, she could date barack obama and you would tell yourself "hey, i already banged her a while back" and then go on about your day without giving it a second thought.

 

This means activities revolving around what you like and you do and building a life for yourself, no one else She has only as much importance as you give her. She could be no one for you if you wanted, which is the path you wish to follow. Take it day by day and smile about the life which is here and beyond!