PlanB123 Posted October 5, 2012 Posted October 5, 2012 Hey, When i think about it logically it must just be a string of thought patterns emotions that i have developed into a habit. She broke up with me almost 3 months ago and i have been NC for 2 months. I am about a month into 'focusing on me and my goals' -- building up my business and working out. I am now also thinking about all the travelling i want to do next year and already looking at flights and making plans for January. When i think about her logically....i don't even want to get back in a relationship with her. I don't even want to have sex with her, kiss her, or even ever see her again. Yet i still have these feelings of loss and sickness. The thought that always kills me is the thought of her having drunk casual sex with other guys. Unfortunately, this is in her history as a single girl and what she will be doing now. Its the thoughts of what the other guys are thinking while they 'fu*k her' in these casual hook ups that my thoughts always go towards. I know what they are thinking because i'm a guy and i know what i think when i have casual sex with a girl out of a club when shes blitzed etc. so the logic is...i don't want her back now i know she's been with others in these sorts of encounters after leaving me. i have my own plans for the future that i wouldn't want to give up to be with her--yet i still feel this way!! she's not coming back anyway. Makes no sense. For my first two bu's it took about 6 months before i got them completely out of my system (even though i was the dumper for one). Seems as though i have to go through 6 months no-matter-what the logic is. I've read up about emotions and how basically different emotions cause the brain to make different chemicals. Our bodies can then be addicted to these chemicals. That's why you get people literally addicted to being depressed. They are addicted to the chemicals of depression. Feedback appreciated.
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