jayde Posted October 5, 2012 Posted October 5, 2012 Alright to start things off. I’m a 17 year old Australian boy with an Italian background (quite hairy) and currently studying year 11 VCE. I’m not like your average teen you hear about off getting drunk and high every weekend and if anything I like to look at myself as mature and I get told alot I am very mature for my age. My social life is fine how it is I personally think. I’m not a party person. I mean I do attend parties but I do have better things on my mind as I try to stay clear of all drama. I’m physically active and participate in many team congested sports outside of school and my current job does involve socialising with people of all ages. Anyway to the main point, I’ve been with this Thai girl for quite some time now, close to 3 years give or take. Her history you can say isn’t the greatest. She grew up never knowing her actual dad and brought over to Australia having 2 half brothers and a person she likes to call dad that is one month in Thailand and the other back here in Australia. She lives with her mum who I personally think isn’t the greatest person to be around. I’m always told how depressed she can be at times and how she has a drinking problem and what not. I always try to be there for my girlfriend but all I seem to cop is abuse. She’s the type of girl where at times we can be the happiest couple alive and then when she Doesn’t feel like it she snaps and tries all sorts of things to make me feel at my worse. Whether it be talking to her ex or ignoring me for a long period of time and what not. In the past she has threatened to cheat on me once. As said she is very abusive towards me and at one stage after we hit 2 years we gave ourselves a break for a good 6 months due to concessive arguments and jealousy. We found it very hard to not act like a couple as we did see each other every day at school. But during these 6 months I had found out she gained feelings for this guy, kept it from me, lied to me. Until I eventually got it out of her. But that is long gone now. She fits in so well with my family and after spending so long with her I don’t know how it would go not being a couple especially considering I do see her every day. I try to think positive during our bad times but I always come to googling other people’s problems with their relationships and seeing how they deal with it. Almost 90% of the time the answer is to end it. But I can’t and I just don’t want to. I understand I’m still young and I have a long time ahead of me but I’m just finding it so hard. I do love her to bits and I don’t want the break off the relationship. I adore and cherish the GOOD times we spend with each other. We have so many photos, videos and what not. Too many memories to let it all go. There is so much more to say but I don’t know how. I try to talk to her and tell her how I feel but I can’t express myself without being called a sook or a C**T. I always try to be there for her but it’s very hard as I have never experienced what she goes through at home. She tells me she is scared of her mum. And all this stress can lead her to having missed/late periods and at times what she calls “depression” I once tried to convince her to get herself checked, I said she may have bi-polar or something else but of course I just copped more abuse. I’m finding it really hard to express how I am feeling and I’m deeply sorry for making so long. It’s just I can’t really find anyone to talk to. People my age would have no idea what it’s like consider they’re all young. I am told by my friends that I don’t deserve to be treated how I am but they don’t see the GOOD bits of the relationship so I don’t know what to believe. Of course when we first started dating I was thinking to myself we were going to be together forever blah blah blah, started naming our children and whatever young couples would do but right now I just want us to make it to the end of school. This way I have less stress on myself when it comes exam time I am sorry once again for making this so long. I just had to get it out some way or another. And I’m just looking for someone who has been in a similar situation that can give me other options then just a dead end (breaking up). I also find it funny how I can write more expressing myself but when it comes to writing an essay in English or something I would struggle to get half of what I just wrote in the period of time I wrote it in. Thankyou in Advance.
riverratt Posted October 5, 2012 Posted October 5, 2012 I am not a head doctor but I wonder if part of her is afraid to let the relationship get to involved because it sounds like a lot of things in her life have been jerked out form under her feet... Hard to say. You guys are young. Don't push it. You have a long life yet to live.
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