magz Posted October 1, 2012 Posted October 1, 2012 I dated my best friend for 3 months long distance. We flew to see each other a few times during this period. I had strong feelings for him, and I think he did too. He was very sweet and caring. But he almost forced me to have sex with him. He said he 'dropped the ball' that time. I felt very strange but didn't feel too bad about it. I felt a bit used by him. After I came back to my city,he texted/emailed me almost everyday. One months later he came to my city and told me that he doesn't want a LDR. He's been holding back and is training himself to de-attach from me. We had a good time while he was here. He kept texting me after he went back. A few weeks later he invited to visit him. I texted him I found a good flight price and he didn't reply for like 2 hours. We had a fight because I think he didn't respond and he is not excited... he eventually told me that he could see I can't take the relationship lightly...it's not healthy and it's exhausting for him, he wants to date other people in his city. I was so crushed and cried like almost everyday. He stopped replying my texts for like 10 days. Then he emailed me a few times after that, talking about his life, the movies he saw..etc. I was ready to let it go. But his emails bothered me. I wanted to believe that he never existed on the earth. I replied back later and said that I've closed that chapter of my life and we can't be friends anymore. He sounded a bit pissed and hanged up the phone. I called later and try to explain but he didn't answer. 3 weeks later I made a decision that I regret - I called him, he called back the next day, we talked happily and he said he was stressed with work and asked how I'm doing...we seems to be on good terms from that phone call and we emailed each other once. In the email he said I'm really special to him, he felt great joy seeing my smile...then nothing ever happened ever since...it's been two weeks now. Tomorrow is his birthday and I don't plan to say anything...because I want to let him go completely from my heart...it's painful to think that perhaps he moved on with another girl...but why would he say that I'm really special to him? I think I cared too much about him...what do you guys think? Should I keep NC for a few more months? Any perspective would be helpful...thank you...
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