do u ever think they just arnt thinkin of you as you are them

[sparky1983]

me and my recently( 2 weeks) ago ex are best friends and were friends before we got together

We were together a year then moved in for a year and then went downhill with rowsetc, ive had a bad year and have been a little mean to her and she ,even though she is 30 wants to go out with her frends alot,which annoyed me

we moved seperatley but wanted to stay together and said we would ry things living seperatley for now

Anyway over time ive got annoyed as we rarely saw each other and i called a break saying i needed to figure stuff out

That was a month ago and i know that i need to let her be happy and if thats away from me and with her freinds then ill let her go,she said no she wanted to stay with me,so 2 weeks ago we met up and she was still angry at me for calling the break and the problems ive caused in last 6 months( i lost my drivers lcence and blew up a few times at her)

we BOTH agreed to break up and cried ,she was so upset and kissed me saying we will be beck together by christmas and im still her best friend

 

she text me saying she wished i was there with her and then that week text me ( i was giving her space) saying she missed me terrbley,loved me and this is so hard and that im her soul mate, i agreed with her and said i too was upset,i resisted the urge to be needy and profess how uoset i was as ive done that with an ex and it drove her away

 

anyway she went on holiday with her friends last friday ,rang me at airport and said she was sad as she wished it was us going away and didnt even want to go,just be with me all the time,and she would call when she is back,i said go and have fun and talk soon

 

now she has been back a day or two and no contacts been made, ive seen fotos on fb of her havin a great time and she never comments on fb but says what a great time she had

 

so my question is this,,as it was a mutual break up i dont think she is trying to get at me through fb or anything i just dont know how a girl can switch her emotions like this ,surely shed wanna talk to me,,i dont know but will mantain nc as i do want to get her back but know i need to stay strong and not go to her?>

 

please advise gurus im a bit lost here thanks