prettykitty93 Posted September 23, 2012 Posted September 23, 2012 Hi I'm new here, I'm gonna try and keep this short but I'm feeling conflicted and really need advice. Me and my ex are both 19, we met at a program for incoming college freshman and instantly hit it off, we were talking like the best of friends. He asks for my number and after a month of hanging out he asks me to be his gf and I agreed. Things went great the first 3 months, but as freshman year begins things get rough and he has a hard time dealing with comforting my depression so we break up. A month or so we get back together and things are great. Fast forward to may, we're back home for the summer, I have a job, and for several reasons we hardly see each other, a few good dates but we usually argue on the phone so much in between those good dates aren't so good anymore. He gets depressed and I want to help but he has a different personality than me, he deals with his issues alone. Fast forward to August he's still depressed and I feel like **** cuz I can't help. I feel like we argue more than we get along but at this point its been over a year and I don't want to break up with a depressed person. Sophomore year starts (I'm at a new school now) and I finally end up breaking up with him because neither of us are happy anymore most of the time, we argue or can never spend time in person together and I can't help his depression. It's been a month since and I wanted to get back together but he won't let me, saying I need someone better and I'm just afraid to get out there because in shy and overweight (he was too btw). That might be true but we're each others first loves and I don't want it to end like this, but he said if I can't act like a "friend" now he's not afraid to cut off all contact to get me to move on. Basically, idk if I want to go the no contact route since we have mutual friends and we'll have to see one another sooner or later. I want us to stay friends but it's hard 'cuz I want and miss us and want us back. Plus, I don't feel like a typical college guy will want a big girl like me anyways, plus I'm kinda weird but me and him had a mutual weirdness together.... Is reconciliation possible or should I let go?
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