Gab09 Posted September 21, 2012 Posted September 21, 2012 I had been kind of sustaining allright for the past couple of weeks.. I had texted her like three weeks ago, asking for something of mine that she had. Not asking for a reply, just stating what I needed her to do and to text my sister so she could drop it off. Well, I guess she never felt like it, till yesterday. She sends my sister a text at 5pm asking, "are you home?".. My sister quickly calls me and tells me that she's coming, so I get home, pack up some stuff and take off. I take off for a good 4 hours, just wanting not to be home when she goes there.. Well, she didn't go at all.. I had made plans with a friend and purchased the premier tickets for the movie "end of watch".. So we had to take off at like 11:20 to be able to get seats.. Well, at around 9:30 she gets to my house, my sister tells me "she's coming".. I'm stuck in my room, while she's outside with my sister talking for about 2 hours! It was almost going to be time for me to leave, but I didn't want to because she would think I did it on purpose to see her.. Which really wasn't the case, although I do want to see her, at the same time I know it'll hurt me even more.. Well, we had no contact, she dropped what was mine off and went on her way. For some reason, just knowing that she was over kind of made me jump back to square one. I feel like crap, I feel like I don't know how to go on again.. I miss her so much and I just wish I could let her know.. Although my sister did tell me, she noticed like she was sad.. "I thought well it's normal, she's coming back to a place where she lived for almost 4 years".. But I don't know, I just feel like crap guys, I had an appointment at 10 for some potential jobs, and I postponed it till monday.. I just couldn't bare to do anything today, I felt like I needed to just grief a little.. Weekend is here, and this is payday.. Just picturing her out having fun makes my stomach hurt.
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