It still feels fresh

[H0wlingRi0t]

I dunno what to do with this, I'm at my wits end and I usually don't like posting my problems on forums, for the world to see. This is more like a last resort. Hoping someone will tell me something different.

 

So, to make a long story short, I dated a woman for a little over 6 years off and on. We'd break up and get back together, you know how it is. During the time I'd date other women, but no matter who I dated, I always went back to my ex. We weren't a good couple though, far from it actually. I could write a book or more a soap opera about our relationship. She was manipulative, back-stabbing and spiteful. It wasn't uncommon for her to verbally abuse me. Calling me trash, saying how I deserve it. It didn't matter, I loved her...or I thought I did.

 

I moved to Japan about 4 years back looking for a new start. At first, it seemed to work, I met a nice Japanese girl, we had our fun, but that went to hell when I found out she was stalking me, and keeping tabs on me when we weren't together. Again, I was brought back to my ex. We started our relationship again, this time long-distance. We'd have our fun on Skype, and she wanted to move here, or so I thought. It was in the end just a ploy for me to go back to the states with her. By the way, I'm Canadian and unable to get a workvisa for the US, so her idea was for me to work illegally as she didn't want to marry just so I could stay in the states with her.

 

Anyway, that went to hell as it usually does and I though that this time, was it. I could finally move on. It's been over a year now since we last spoke and I thought all was well. Now, I live with my current girlfriend in a nice apartment close to Shinjuk, but I can feel my ex creeping in the back of my mind. My longing for her. I really want to let my ex go and just move on. It feels like unless I can let her go, my life will be at a standstill and I can't be happy. It's really started to effect, my day to day life.

 

How do I let her go?