underwater2010 Posted September 20, 2012 Posted September 20, 2012 How many other BSs are just waiting for the other shoe to drop?
mercy Posted September 20, 2012 Posted September 20, 2012 What an awful way to live. What do you think the other shoe will be? I don't know when your dd was.
Author underwater2010 Posted September 20, 2012 Author Posted September 20, 2012 What an awful way to live. What do you think the other shoe will be? I don't know when your dd was. It has only been 4 months out. There has been NC between the two of them. But my whole life has been a series of dropped shoes. Those that have been important to me have just let me down. I guess I am just waiting.
mercy Posted September 20, 2012 Posted September 20, 2012 It has only been 4 months out. There has been NC between the two of them. But my whole life has been a series of dropped shoes. Those that have been important to me have just let me down. I guess I am just waiting. I'm sorry and I mean that. Waiting is such an unsettling place to be. Four months from dd is still so very raw for you. The other shoe for me was what was the OW going to do next. She went too far at one point and lost her job and retirement but still she wasn't through yet. But yes it was an awful place to be. h and I determined early on that she wasn't going to matter to our healing. But some days it was just too much.
Athena Posted September 20, 2012 Posted September 20, 2012 How many other BSs are just waiting for the other shoe to drop? Yes, I keep myself aware that another shoe can drop at any moment -- I don't put ANYTHING past my H... I am fully aware that he is capable of doing anything. I don't trust him as far as being faithful is concerned. He has proven time and again that his words and promises mean absolutely nothing. Sadly, I don't even trust him in other ways too, for instance, I refuse to go visit him where he works abroad, because I have concerns about my safety as far as my life is concerned. Either him, or one of his OW, or 'putting a contract' on me in that country it is not uncommon, or 'an accident'. Strangely enough my mother said a similar thing to me a few years back (and she loves my H) she warned me not to go up any high mountain with my H where he might be able to push me off... I don't trust him to sleep with him, since he has in the past slept with OW without protection, and then with me. He has gambled with my safety. If that other shoe drops, I won't be surprised.
Author underwater2010 Posted September 20, 2012 Author Posted September 20, 2012 I see everyday how remorseful my husband is. That he hurts just like I do. It is just that past experience has shown me that those who you love most, will break you down. I go hopeful to scared in a moments notice.
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