youngnlove89 Posted September 20, 2012 Posted September 20, 2012 (edited) Oh and I should add, when we broke up Saturday (for the LAST time), I cried my eyes out. I mean I cried so hard my chest and throat were sore after I recovered. My eyes were puffy and I couldn't breathe. It felt like someone punched me in the face. I think I got all the pain out of me. I CHOSE not to cry like that anymore. I let it out and it's not coming back in. You said how you cried for 5 days, I think maybe now that you got it out of your system, you are okay. You are detoxed now. Sure, it might come back to us. We might have to cry like that again. But for now, ENJOY the fact that you don't feel anything. Sulk in it. Remember it, because I'm sure it will hit us again. Edited September 20, 2012 by youngnlove89
Author Hannahlmh170 Posted September 20, 2012 Author Posted September 20, 2012 I*love her and I miss her but I wouldn't say I am happy. I am okay. I cried for the first five days, all day. My girlfriend treat me very well, she was my best friend as well as my girlfriend. She always bought me things and we spoke lots everyday. I don't think I am better off without her. I don't know. If she asked me to get back with her right now, I would say yes. I just don't understand why I am neither happy or sad or anything, I mean, I have my moments of being each but they only last about five minutes. I feel anxious sometimes but I don't know why?
Author Hannahlmh170 Posted September 20, 2012 Author Posted September 20, 2012 Ohh okay. Thank you. I just thought I was feeling totally different to how you are meant to feel after a break up. Last Monday (My last full day of crying). I cried all day and screamed my house down. I fell to the floor in tears so many times and that was definitely my hardest day but since then I have felt okay?
youngnlove89 Posted September 20, 2012 Posted September 20, 2012 I*love her and I miss her but I wouldn't say I am happy. I am okay. I cried for the first five days, all day. My girlfriend treat me very well, she was my best friend as well as my girlfriend. She always bought me things and we spoke lots everyday. I don't think I am better off without her. I don't know. If she asked me to get back with her right now, I would say yes. I just don't understand why I am neither happy or sad or anything, I mean, I have my moments of being each but they only last about five minutes. I feel anxious sometimes but I don't know why? Listen, stop this nonsense. You don't feel anything because you are either A) in shock or B) getting over it I think you are in shock. It will hit you again, for now enjoy this moment of silence. I never met someone who wanted to feel the pain and sadness. I would be happy if I were you, so many people on here want to be in the situation you are in!
Author Hannahlmh170 Posted September 21, 2012 Author Posted September 21, 2012 youngnlove89; Well, I'm sorry but I don't like feeling nothing. It doesn't make sense to me. This is my first breakup with my very first love and only having five days of crying is making me wonder, WHY?!
Berna Posted September 21, 2012 Posted September 21, 2012 Maybe you were already devastated during the relationship. I know I was, and have been living with the thought of us breaking up for months (we did break up twice and then got back together). I feel the same as you do, and he is also my first love. Weird, but I like it this way better.
Author Hannahlmh170 Posted September 21, 2012 Author Posted September 21, 2012 Yeah, I had questioned her a few times in our last few months together about whether she still loved me or not because it really didn't feel like it, she wasn't nasty or anything she just didn't initiate kissing or cuddling anymore or ever say 'I love you' first. So maybe I came to terms with her not loving me whilst still being with her? I think that could be it.
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