ForeverAlone1991 Posted September 18, 2012 Posted September 18, 2012 I realized that I will probably have to get all new furniture because almost everything in my new place are things we used to share when we lived together from my bed to the couch to my desk. it all used to be ours and he gave it to me. why would he give me all these things if he didn't care? I guess he never had any attachment to these items anyways. I got to work and am trying to be positive but I was looking in a notebook and it had some notes he was taking for school. It made me so sad to see his handwriting. It may not have been addressed to me or even about anything in particular but it was something unique to him. It was his handwriting a style I would never see again. God I just loved every part of him even the parts I didn't like or couldn't stand I still loved him with all of his flaws and I wasn't even good enough for him to open up and talk through our problems or to work on our relationship. I will never truly understand his reasons why and I can't assume how he thinks or feels but it just leaves me feeling so empty. I feel like I gave it my all and he gave only what he had to. I feel as if he only kept me around because he was lonely. I am in the middle of feeling deep sorrow and spite. I am just so glad I have this community to voice the way I'm feeling too. I am trying to focus on all the good and positive in my life. But for right now it is just so hard.
SeventhFloor Posted September 26, 2012 Posted September 26, 2012 I don't really have much to say besides I've been through what you're going through. I also wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I pray that things get better for you and time is gentle and kind.
Minka333 Posted September 26, 2012 Posted September 26, 2012 Sorry to hear what you're going through. At one point in my life i also felt exactly the same way. I would go out see similar cars he's driving, see men with similar physiques or hear his name and i'd spiral to depression too. But in time i got so tired and eventually i became numb to all things that reminded me of him. It would be a great idea to give up the furnitures. You can even repaint your walls, get a new pet or start a different routine.
Jingle14 Posted September 26, 2012 Posted September 26, 2012 Sorry to hear what you're going through. At one point in my life i also felt exactly the same way. I would go out see similar cars he's driving, see men with similar physiques or hear his name and i'd spiral to depression too. But in time i got so tired and eventually i became numb to all things that reminded me of him. It would be a great idea to give up the furnitures. You can even repaint your walls, get a new pet or start a different routine. I really hope this happens to me, as I am so, so tired of everything being an obstacle course. I never lived with him but I bought things i.e new duvet set, towels, cups, all of which are now gone (the dog now has 'his' bathtowel). I can't bear to see 'his' car - and it seems they are everywhere, despite being so distinctive - the brands of toiletries he uses (only 4, he was a creature of habit which I found endearing, while his ex found him boring), I won't eat carrot cake anymore as it's his favourite, there are places I won't go (many of them), I see him everywhere - or think I do, he is all the tall, slim and dark haired men I see - and am stopped in my tracks, sometimes I actually do see him as he lives locally and it is never an easy recovery. I won't even go to the cinema as I know he took a woman to see a film shortly after we broke up (which I found out by accident after we slept together while broken up). Everything is just one, big reminder, a big downer. But not for him.
Gulf-Delta Posted September 26, 2012 Posted September 26, 2012 Same here. I lived with my ex for two years. I can't do, eat or see anything without thinking of her.
lukas Posted September 26, 2012 Posted September 26, 2012 Same here. I lived with my ex for two years. I can't do, eat or see anything without thinking of her. You need to move ASAP and throw out as much of your ex's stuff as possible
Gulf-Delta Posted September 26, 2012 Posted September 26, 2012 You need to move ASAP and throw out as much of your ex's stuff as possible I don't have any stuff of hers'. And I don't need to move.
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