How to stop this?

[Ririnn]

I'm having problems. And I'm making problems myself but I don't know how to stop myself.

 

After a bad experience with a guy and not knowing whether I've been rejected because of myself or as he claimed he had a mental disease. We remained friends for a year but due to some problems we're not anymore.

 

 

Also I had a bad break up before that. In Which he suddenly left me, telling me a year later he never loved me. And all the time we were together was a lie. I don't know why he lied.

 

 

I used to be a stronger person but now I feel inadequate.

 

 

Mostly because of the second guy. Every girl I see I keep telling myself:"I bet he would date her. She's hot. I'm not."

"I bet he would love this one, she's his taste. She looks cool and special"

 

"I bet this one knows about everything.."

 

I keep pitying myself, feeling bad and unattractive.

 

Even though he had said to his friend that i'm pretty. But knowing that doesn't help either.

 

I've read and I think I have dependable personality disorder but its mostly obvious for stuff related to him.

 

My past relationship has its effects too,

I don't have access to counseling nor psychiatrist where I am.

 

How do I stop this?

[TaraMaiden]

Go to your doctor and ask to be referred to a counsellor.

because you do need help to get over this, and much as we'd love to help, you need someone who will monitor your progress.

 

Some things just can't be done by joining a forum...