what is it??

[Krita]

Recently I joined a new workplace. There is this very good looking man around 36-37 who is in a senior position but does not belong to my division. As a person,, whatever I have seen in the workplace, he is very reserved and I have hardly seen him talking to anybody or mixing around. We had a formal introduction and a meeting. And after that, he always wished me with a smile when we met occasionally in the hallway. I thought that he was being just a professional. But what is different is when we used to meet, he used to give a wee bit longer eye contact with a broad smile till I used to be close enough for him to say hi. I also used to say hi with a smile. But he used to be the one to say it first. I also maintained eye contact and wished him...Then I started seeing him everywhere, whenever I left my place. At times we just happened to look at each other for a second and I looked away. And then I found myself many a times eye locked for few seconds every now and then...Once or twice this happened when I used to talk to someone, I turned around to find him passing by....and find him looking at me. Though both of us sit far from each other I found him looking at me when I got up to fetch things. So there were lots of eye contacts involved from near and far. Although he never said anything, I guess his eyes did the trick. And eventually I could feel that I was attracted towards him and slowly developed a crush. Then I found out that he is married with 2 kids. As such I get weak in my knees, skip heartbeats and act like a nut when he is around. Once it was in a departmental store I saw him with his family and he was just a few meters away from me. But I was so nervous and just to avoid the awkwardness I pretended as if I did not see him and went off. But he did see me, I’m sure, but he did not say his usual hi. Since then, I hardly see him in the workplace hallway. I rarely meet him nowadays. Once or twice we bumped into each other. He avoided looking at me directly and muttered a quick sorry. I feel he is avoiding me. Nowadays at time he passes by my desk but looks just straight. Earlier he used to look at me with a smile. I feel like a fool now. What did I do? So I’m also not raking things up. But I really want to know what was it?? Sometimes I really think about him…and it’s like telepathy he passes through my desk at least twice on that particular day. I don’t know what’s going on. Can somebody interpret? I get no logic. At one time, I had this strong gut feeling that he is certainly going to talk to me but....

[raea]

There isn't anything to interpret. He is married, and while you can't help having a crush on him. why try to make it something it cannot be. Respect his marriage and let it go.