This whole story just sickens me.

[ahmedelsaka]

hey,

ive had a hard break up, but ive noticed that over the time that ive been with her, i havent been myself, like, i was a hardcore gamer, and i also used to get good grades, i used to actually enjoy that alot, now im lazy, i dont go out, i skip classes, i stopped getting the grades that i used to, and i even stopped the only thing that i loved the most, gaming. me and her are on great terms but i dont know if i can stay like this? she liked me for the gaming nerd i am, i just dont know what has happened, i didnt change to impress her, i dont know what the hell is happening. god its just depressing. i have nobody that i am able to talk to. absolutly nobody, i am depressed, and never felt anymore alone in my entire life. i lost my girlfriend and even when we were friends, she got another boyfriend and we stopped talking so he wouldnt get angry, she told me that me and her boyfriend were all that she had left, and that i was like her brother, and i thought i was happy, i told myself that its ok, then she cut off all connections between us, and now we have no way to talk, she just waves whenever she sees me. and i have nobody to talk to, i just want anything or anybody to talk to. this sucks.

[flitzanu]

no motivation to do things you enjoy = depression.

[Crila16]

You don't have any male friends? When you lose sight of who you are in a relationship, you are not in a healthy relationship. If you stopped doing things you love after the breakup, you are depressed. Welcome...it's not a pretty or happy place to be, but we've all been there. If it's your first time, I'm sorry...but this is how it feels. The good news, it does end. It will end over time and you will slowly, once again, gain your sense of self again. Time will be your best friend, and your worst enemy all at once. It's a good thing this girl cut you out as a friend completely. Staying friends with her is not going to help you. It only feeds her needs, not yours.