travelbug1996 Posted September 16, 2012 Posted September 16, 2012 You mentioned that he takes the pain away of having to deal with yourself. I would venture to say that he is causing you pain and you may in fact be addicted to emotional pain and drama. Go and find the book called Mr. Unavailable and the Fallback Girl. It will help to shed some light on this for you. No one can take your pain away. You have to sit with it and work through it yourself. Best wishes
Author MissDVL Posted September 16, 2012 Author Posted September 16, 2012 So I saw him Friday night at work. It wasn't pleasant, but it wasn't unbearable. Friday night was a leaving party and he was the DJ. Right on cue, 15 minutes after I turned up I got a text "You look sexy x". About halfway through the night he texts saying "Next song for us x" and plays 'our' song. I had to leave the room at this point. Didn't cry though, which was a relief. We had a stifled conversation on the dancefloor when he told me he missed me and I looked beautiful. Nearly crumbled at this point but stayed strong. He asked if we could still be friends? Not sure about this. He was texting all day yesterday, I was sleeping most of the afternoon as I had early work. Only replied a couple of times and tried to leave big gaps in between so I wasn't sitting around waiting for his reply. Haven't heard from him today. I know he's working at the moment and now would normally be the time he would come round on his break. It's hard not speaking to him but making it easier at the same time. I saw my doctor on Friday morning, I gave in and got anti depressants. Felt awful yesterday, side effects have been horrible. Today was slightly better. I'm looking forward to when they kick in so I can finally get my life back on track. My dad is looking in to private counselling for me so I don't have to be stuck on a waiting list. Things are looking a bit more positive.
Recommended Posts