esco Posted July 22, 2004 Posted July 22, 2004 I am 16 years old and I have been with my girlfriend for the past 5 and a half months, I have had an extremly hard life and I did alot of things wrong, but then one day, this beautiful girl came into my life and changed everything for me, I was finally happy, I waited for her to be with me, I waited and waited and then she finally said yes. The relationship started out perfectly, we were in love, nothing could stop us, but now...5 months later, we have both been diagnosed with depression and will not be talking for the next two weeks because she is leaving town, I CANNOT LOSE her, she is everything to me but she says that her love has faded away, I know I am young and many would argue that i dont know what love is yet, but this is something different, no ne knows how I feel inside, not even her, my depression has gotten worse, I do not want to fight or argue anymore, I just want things to go back to the way that they were...memories cut lke knives, I miss her so much and I need to see her but I cant, all that I am living for is slowly slipping away from me...
clintonsmith Posted July 22, 2004 Posted July 22, 2004 well- here is the deal, and it may not be what you want to hear. i know you are in great pain, i have been there recently, and i am 24 years old. it will pass. what you have to understand is you will never be able to have a functional relationship with her as long as you feel you "need" her. b/c what will happen is she will come back to you, and shortly leave you again just as before, and the cycle of pain you are in will last an infitie amount of time. the ONLY way you can heal in this deal is give things up to god. at your age, it is impossible to understand i know, b/c i am just now realizing what true faith is and how it affects us. it doesn't have to be a particular god, but you just have to understand that there is a higher power than you that controls things, and you have to understand that he will put you where you are supposed to be. You will understand this in due time, for many of us, it takes a lifetime. please take this time to focus on yourself, become strong, and happy on your own. you must understand that NO MATTER HOW MUCH you want this girl, it will never work if you feel you need her, that your happiness depends on her, and that she is your higher power. Don't feel bad, i am sure you are such a great person. This too shall pass.
clintonsmith Posted July 22, 2004 Posted July 22, 2004 when you get through this, life will be beautiful and better then you imagined it could be, I PROMISE. Say a prayer, ask god to take it and take control of your life, and things will fall into place. If you get very physically sick, which very well could happen, go see a doctor, don't EVER be afraid to ask for help. you have tons of life ahead of you, many great things.
Author esco Posted July 23, 2004 Author Posted July 23, 2004 thanks yall, but the pain is truly unbearable, it is something that i cannot explain, my whole life is in turmoil, the only time that i am happy is with her, my dreams have been shattered, how do i make her love me? I am dying inside, my doctor wants to put me on suicide watch, I never in my life believed that i would love someone this much, sometimes i wish i would have never met her, anyways i need all the help i can get, i dont know how long ill be on this site, but my email address is btnh12001@yahoo.com, take cre
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