yoman38 Posted September 10, 2012 Posted September 10, 2012 hey guys I Just broke up with my girlfriend recently and am having a difficult time coming to terms with why I did it and why I shouldn't go back. I miss her so much and so many things remind me of her. It's hard because I'm going through a stressful period right now and it would be so easy to reach out to her and try to go back. But, I'm afraid because I don't want to play games with her. The reason I did it wasn't because I found anything wrong with her in fact I though she was a top of the line lady. Beautiful, smart, good future ahead of her, strong faith, and kind. The reason I left was because there was so much uncertainty in my heart about who I am. I couldn't tell if that was what I wanted if I was ready to move to the next level with her and start getting serious because we were spending a lot more time with each other. See I had this weird feeling in my heart that told me I had self discovery to do, kind of like a strange voice calling me calling me somewhere deeper. Telling me there was many things I have to experience and a self trust I have to gain which I currently did not have in this relationship. It told me there were many things left undone and that I had to be alone for a while possibly years in order to test whether I could be happy on my lonesome kind of like a trial I have to go through, it said there are things yet to be done and that my beliefs need to still be molded. I am in my mid 20s, have my life set out for me and am in a pretty difficult school program. But, what kills me is how could I listen to this voice and actually leave such an awesome person, I don't get it I'm confused. has anyone ever experienced something like this before where has it led? What is this voice, this feeling? The break up is still fresh and I oscillate between periods where I feel like I made the right decision and then I have some regret and say OMG what'd I do. The crazy thing though is I have not made any effort to reach out cause I really value her healing. And I want her to move on. but the question is, this path it seems so scary right now I feel like I'm leaving some great things behind but something is telling me to keep going, what is it, where is it going, it feels weird like different?
oracle Posted September 10, 2012 Posted September 10, 2012 Look, you you have those feelings deep inside right now, then do her, yourself and everyone else a favor and keep walking. Go be young, **** around, travel. Do what you have to do and get it outta your system. Cause they won't go away and it won't get better so deal with it NOW. Trust me, i was locked down with someone for 14yrs since we were both 19. We lived isolated lives with just each other. Once we owned a restaurant with lots of young fun people ex was realizing all the things he may have missed out on and that f'd everything up. Don't inflict yourself on anyone until you WANT your life to be about being with someone and building a life together. There will be plenty more "the ones" that will come along. Plus what you will want and appreciate, will change as you age. good luck
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