toffeecream77 Posted September 1, 2012 Posted September 1, 2012 Does it seem like that to anyone else? A year ago is a long time. But I can still remember and feel as it if were only last week. My ex and I broke up a year ago. Ten days after we spilt up, he was with someone else so I figure he left me for her. Of course, I didn't know this straight away and after a couple of weeks of N/C, I chased after him and declared my love. He wasn't interested. The details don't matter anymore anyway. It was a long distance relationship. I moved to his city (2 hours away from my home) for work. We met. The rest is history. Anyway, I fell in love with this city and after I returned home, before our relationship got serious, I vowed I would move back. I still love the city but jobs are very difficult to come by, especially if you live in a different country. But I managed to find a job in a city only half hour away from that one -- so I figured maybe I can move there and it'll put me in better position to look for a job, as I'll be in the same country, but only half a hour away. My interview is next Wednesday. I've just been browsing through apartments to rent and it suddenly hit me -- do I really want to uproot? Yes, it was my dream for around a year to move back to this city and this will make it easier to get there. Gosh, I wanted it so bad I used to feel like crying sometimes! But now...six months on...I still want to move back but I'm not sure I want to move to this city which is half an hour away. I don't have any friends in this city but it would be easy to commute on weekends. I just worry being in a city half an hour away with no friends isn't going to be good for me and will make me think about my ex. If I was in the other city (where he lives, yes, odd I know), I'd be surrounded by former colleagues/good friends, I don't think it'd be an issue. I think this opportunity is good and I should give it a try if I'm offered it because it will be a stepping stone to get to the other city and find a great job there. But I'm scared of being alone after going through heartbreak and depression over the last year. I should be brave but the last year has been traumatic. The other option is to stay where I am and carry on working from home and not get a little closer to my dream of living and working in that city.
kindest Posted September 3, 2012 Posted September 3, 2012 Yes, it has been seven months since we broke up but it feels like it was only yesterday. I guess I'm still not over him.
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